2011

Flashback to 2010's resolutions, kynya ga banyak yg tercapai..sayang sekali..malam ini dejavu lagi..gw duduk di kamar memikirkan apa yg harus tercapai di tahun ini, dan gw ga mau muluk", gw akan merealisasikan resolusi 2010 tsb ;)

Well anyway, i bought 3 tickets this year, yeaaay..!! I'll go to Phuket by Feb, Hongkong by May and Lombok - Bali by August, soooo excited..!!

I intend get my post graduate degree, hope i can get to UGM, amiiin ;)

Hope this year gonna be fierce ;)

Mood Boosting

Hmm, where to start..

My feeling..Hmm it's getting better..Since he's in a relationship now, it's easier for me to ignore everything about him. It's easy for me to get closer and welcoming new guys in my life. Thx for him ;)

Last week when I went to Bandung, my bro and sis showed me there Korean reality show, named Running Man and We Got Married. Since then, i am addicted to them. It became my mood booster. I am willing to re-learn guitar.

Well, I actually have a guitar since Junior High School, but it is at my bro place now..Oooh i really want to learn it..I'll buy the new clasic Guitar (Nylon)..Really can't wait ^o^

I intend to learn French. I think it's a sexy language. I bought French and Japanese dictionary to learn without going to course, ehehhee..

I want to go to school and go to the new place to work..Pheew, lot of thing to do then..

Shocked

Kamis lalu, pas gw pulang ke rumah, secara ga sadar ternyata charger
bb gw ketinggalan di kantor. Cari akal tux ngecharge hp itu, akhirnya
gw make lapie dan kabel data..iseng" buka fb n twitter via web..guess
what i've found..Ari is in a relationship..!!

Wooow, i was speachless..that's really fast..mu nangis rasanya..i was
on the phone when i saw the feed..sampe" omongan temen gw itu ga ada
yg gw dengerin..gw blank seketika..omg, how could he..?!

Gw bener" berasa dibohongin..segala ucapan dy ke gw tuh bullshit..!!

"there's only you"
"i wanna get married with you!"
"i love you"
"i don't wanna lose you"
"i love you 24hrs no matter what happen"

Gosh..stupid me trusted all he said..

Kecewa..kecewaaaa bgt..alasan sibuk n ga punya wkt skrg udh ga berlaku
lagi kyny..itu makin ngebuka mata gw lagi, bahwa dy ga bener" sayang
sama gw..

Sekarang gw di bandung, lagi ambil cuti 3 hari nemenin nenex n fam gw
liburan disini..jd keinget dulu wkt dy nyamper gw ke sini..ngobrol
sama nyokap, ketawa" bareng..jalan" bareng..those were beautiful..

Sekarang..smuanya emang cuma boongan..i am shocked, really
shocked..but that's fine, karena dg begini, gw harus bener" ngapus dy
dr kehidupan gw..

"Klo lo ngerasa ga bs hidup tanpa dy, coba dibalik. Bisa ga lo hidup
bareng" dy terus?" - Yumin

Waaaaw, pertanyaan yg skakmat..!! I always imagine having a lil' fam
with him, happy together with our kids..tapi gw ga pernah ngebayangin
hidup dg seorang 'Don Juan', dmn sering dikelilingi wanita, gampang
jatuh cinta n gampang melupakan orang yg sudah diberikan harapan
setinggi langit..

"A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be
thankful for a good one". - Marjorie Kinnan

It's been twice my Dear God..i have enuf..would you please give me the
last one, to be my last 'stop' of hurt, hope and love? I pray to You..

Hellow Couples

Hello Couple ;)

Couple months i have followed some couples which are my friends..I love to see their blogs..I love to see the love between them. Some of them are silly, some are cute, some are stupid naughty..

Reading them sometimes makes me smile, sad and jealous..Who doesn't want to be loved in return? I do..They do..You do..

Sometimes i questioning myself, why can't i be like them? Why can't i have a lasting relationship?

Let's juz say yesterday was not my day and i hope i'll get my life partner soon ;)

Pray #2

I love me and me only..but God, will You let me love someone who is destined for me now, may I ? I miss him already..

Pending post

Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dear God,
I think I’m ok now.. No more tears came from my eyes, even sometimes I feel miserable every time the zip memory comes in mind. 
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Friday, July 23, 2010
Dear God,
I’m sorry coz I broke up my words yesterday.. I cried hard.. Too many disappointment things for me.. I think this is my Year of Tears.. I feel disappointed not because of him, but because of my trusted friends.. I need to be heard, feel beloved, to be cared.. I need someone who can really stand by me in every possibility at the sad and good things of my life..
Call me egoist.. Maybe I am..
Maybe at this moment I’m counting down every little thing I’ve done as a friend to give the best I have.. Is it wrong to expect the same from someone I expected to..?
Yeah I know there are many ways to show your kindness and care for everyone.. But because of that.. I feel the emptiness.. So this is what an ‘empty’ word stands for..
Dear God,
Please heal me.. I feel miserable at the moment.. Cry is the best thing I can do to feel better now..

Everyday

-I wish I can be like this everytime i feel sad-http://simplynorule.tumblr.com

Please?

Please hear my pray, God..