doubt

What makes me doubted him..? I don’t know..i tried to find the answer in my head –my heart..?- but I never found it..Honestly, I like him, but do I really ‘like’ him..? I don’t know either..there’s something in my heart..Questioning.. Discrediting..Not trusting him..and I feel like I’m just an option for him..days he tried to convince me..days he tried to pleasant me..why..?

Many reasons came to be the answers to him for me..does my heart so cold to see it..? i think i'll give him a chance..it's not bcoz i'm a desperate-jomblo woman-or a girl-, hahaha sounds pathetic, but it's more like sth to lead me, to show me, to give me the answer abt my own feeling..

Well, we had discussed abt our relationship -without tellin' the 2nd character's name of course- many times..he asked me questions abt the possibilities of the next-relationship, how to manage an LDR, convinced me that i'm special, etc"..i don't know for sure...

What i know is, he'll be back in April to meet me..should i prepare sth for any possibilities..? hahaha, juz wait n c..

V-days - LDR..?

What is so special from Valentine..? i don't think Valentine is 'a Must' in a relationship..not only relation with ur couple, but also to the others..well, i used to celebrate it since my friends always did it..but in the past years, i became really careless to the v-day..is it because i don't have a boyfriend to share it with..? wkakak, i don't know for sure..

Well anyway, i'm in Puncak, all Jombloners in the office -the closest one, of course- went to Puncak exactly @ v-days, hihihi..

Talking abt boyfriend..have u ever do the LDR..? well, i don't really know how it is goin' coz i never had experience with it..but will i..? i don't know either..i think when i do the LDR, i'll never feel like i have a boyfriend..yes we can talk on the phone, and of course we can keep our communication with all available devices..but the existence is also important, rite..? i'm afraid the feeling will be gone if we dont meet..ah i don't know, well i also don't do the LDR rite now, so i won't take it seriously until i really have it..