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Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dear God,
I think I’m ok now.. No more tears came from my eyes, even sometimes I feel miserable every time the zip memory comes in mind. 
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Friday, July 23, 2010
Dear God,
I’m sorry coz I broke up my words yesterday.. I cried hard.. Too many disappointment things for me.. I think this is my Year of Tears.. I feel disappointed not because of him, but because of my trusted friends.. I need to be heard, feel beloved, to be cared.. I need someone who can really stand by me in every possibility at the sad and good things of my life..
Call me egoist.. Maybe I am..
Maybe at this moment I’m counting down every little thing I’ve done as a friend to give the best I have.. Is it wrong to expect the same from someone I expected to..?
Yeah I know there are many ways to show your kindness and care for everyone.. But because of that.. I feel the emptiness.. So this is what an ‘empty’ word stands for..
Dear God,
Please heal me.. I feel miserable at the moment.. Cry is the best thing I can do to feel better now..

Stubborn

Dear God,

It hurts..
You know how I feel, rite?

I love someone who doesn't loves me back..
Being the last one to know is hurt coz once, I've been the first one..
With all the promises he made, I expected those will come true..its heart breaking when someone comes to you, promises to take care for it and gives it back..broken..it's hurt..

Dear God,

I want to stop asking 'why', but I can't.. I couldn't find the reason why these things happened.. Will You juz give me someone who really loves me as much as I love him, even bigger than me.. I already miss him, God..

I know I am stubborn and strong enuf to accept it.. I believe I can handle it wisely and forget him to let my heart try accept a new one..but I don't want to -yet-.. Am I wrong if I have a lil bit hope to get him back to me? I want him, God..

Yeah once again I know I'm a stubborn person..