The Healing

It's been a while..

2 months I didn't update this blog..Too much to be written here, I lost my mood when this page was opened..Am not ready to fill it up with the things I'd like to say..

But am ready now..

*The Break Up

Breakin' up from Ari was a..Heartbreak..A deep heartbreak..I thought he was the one..I was naive..I was stubborn..I was blind..He was just a professional sweet liar ;) I don't hate him, not at all..I admiring him for what he is, for what he achieved..Me, as a friend, really amazed of the things he had made..Me, as an ex, really disappointed of him..But then again, he coloured my day, even for a while..He was my rainbow..Maybe, he's the sweetest and the bitterest..

It's kind a hard for me living in the place where SLR is so easy to find, since it became so popular nowadays..It reminds me of him, it's identic to him..I had a lil' bit trauma to it..I've been in a position, where in a week, I was surounded by Photographers, hundreds of Photographers, three times in a week..Can you imagine being me..? Standing around them, hearing the sound of Shutters, seeing they taking pictures of the objects..It's suffering..I was stand, doing nothing, freezing until my friend pulled me out of there..

A week after the breaking up, I attended Ratih and Andre's wedding..I got the bouquet..!! Ahahahaha, I didn't know what to say, should I happy or sad of it..I was with The Guyz and they're just smile see it. I think they were the same with me, speechless..

Time will heal the pain..


Yes, it is..The more he disappears from me, the more I can forget him. He erased anything about me, Photos, Videos, all gone..He wants to erase me..That's ok..It proved that am too good for him..Well, I notice he had a cruch with a new one and has several close girls..It really shows how easy a word 'Love' is said without any meaning on it..Ouh, a lil bit sorry to all stewardesses and models, I hate you now ;)

Enough about him..He is moving on, I should do the same..

*I do something that I want to..

I did Capoeira..!! Yeeaaay, finally I made it..!! It was like 5 years ago I want to do that. It was fun, finally I met Andrew, the founders of Capoeira in Indonesia..Btw, I lost 4kgs in 4 times of practices..So good for you who want to lose the weight, heuheuheue..

I went to Galleries with Mayang..Oh what a sweet escape..I love ARTs..

I joined CF now, not to lose my weight, but to keep me healthy ;)

*The ex's marriage

Riyan and Nuy are married finally..I am happy for them..They got married in 101010, a special day, huh..Well, I came to the rehearsal with the main purpose to see the bride, since I never met her..Then I saw her..There's nothing I can say here *bbm or ym me for further information, LOL*..No regret at all coming there ;)

*The Promotion

Office is a place where the politic does exist..Nothing I can say here, too tired to think of it, too sick to talk about it..Well, a good friend of mine, which I think one of the greatest SA had resign after several important people did the same..

I got promoted as Head of GCM SA..Happy..? Don't know for sure..I just think it's good for my resume..

*Natural disaster

These couple days is being the hardest day for Indonesia..A Tsunami in Mentawai, an Earchquake in Wasior and a Mount Eruption in Jogyakarta..Many victims there..While they need help to live, our Public Representative (DPR) is going for 'sightseing-having fun-shopping' abroad..What the hell..Oooh I hate politic evenmore..

I hope by the world's help, all of them can be saved and heal from the traumatic..#PrayForIndonesia

*Love life

It's like a desert, huehuheue..I have no chrush with anyone..It's plain..Where everyone is busy planning their marriage, I am busy looking for the right guy..Tragic, mwuahahhaa..

*Plan

I have so much plans in my head..Still looking for the right path, the right time, and a bravery to realize them ;)

***
Am Healing..
;)

TheSingleWoman : “The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us”.
~ It hasn't started on me -yet-, I think..

IhateQuotes : “When the prince of your fairytale turns into the jerk of the story, it's time to grab a pen and change the end”.
~ Am working on it :D

TweetMoveOn : “I'm single not because nobody wants me. It's because the lucky one is still waiting to be chosen by me”.
~ ;)

(Mencoba) Sabar dan Mengerti

Gosh..hhh..buat beberapa orang yg pernah gw curhatin tiba”, pasti tau gw sedang mengalami apa..gw bimbang, gw sedih, gw mellow, sampe gw sakit..
Buat orang” yg udah kenal gw beberapa tahun ini pasti tau klo gw bukan orang yg cengeng, gw termasuk orang yg keras kepala, lebih mengutamakan rasio dibanding sama perasaan..tapi kali ini ga..huff..
I hate being like this..
But I’ll try to be more patient and understand the condition..I’ll try..

is it da rite job..?

Gw sedang mengalami masa" dilemma (again)...belakangan ini banyak temen" gw yang resign dr tempat kerja gw dengan alasan yang sama : getting a better place. siapa aja yg mu out..? Evi ke BCA, Tiara & ci Linda ke IBM (SAP pula), Faisal entah kemana, Elda ke ASTRA, Ciput ke Ausie...yes, those are better than this company...and yes, it makes me thinking again, whether it is da rite place for me...

Klo mu di liat dari segi salary sie dah pasti disana jauh lebih gede dari pada disini...gw juga mau banget nyoba di tempat lain dimana sebagai Newbie dah bs dapet salary gede dengan nama perusahaan yang dah besar...tapi, dont know why, i feel very comfort in here, and also i really wanna be a real SA...lingkungan yang dah seru banget, walopun dengan suasana kerja yang serba di kejar deadline, dimana hampir tiap menit para developer teriak" "jira nambah nie", ato "dah di deploy blom..?", ato juga "UAT ga beres nie", dan smuanya itu di tambah dengan kata 'COY', wkakakaka....it's nice to be in here...

But back to my future...bokap beberapa hari ini nyuruh gw coba di tempat lain, like a bank...yes, i really wanna work in a bank...i dreamt it since couple years ago, and he is become my role model to be an employee...selain itu dia juga nanya sesuatu yang ga bisa gw jawab, "emangnya Nissa dah puas kerja disana...?". Gimana bisa puas klo kerja aja blom dimulai...khan gw br selesai training, walopun gw dah di assign tux pegang 1 project, tapi khan musti nunggu requirements dari client...tapi gw juga ga muna klo gw emang pengen di bank...

Aaah...bokap expect gw dapet di tempat gede, like those place ( up above)...tapi gw juga pengen nyoba dulu disini...gw pengen liat kemampuan gw gmn...n jujur gw juga berat ninggalin orang" disini...hhh, bener" dilemma buat gw...(i cant interpret in here, coz dunno how to write it in words)...

*waitng for the answer...