doubt

What makes me doubted him..? I don’t know..i tried to find the answer in my head –my heart..?- but I never found it..Honestly, I like him, but do I really ‘like’ him..? I don’t know either..there’s something in my heart..Questioning.. Discrediting..Not trusting him..and I feel like I’m just an option for him..days he tried to convince me..days he tried to pleasant me..why..?

Many reasons came to be the answers to him for me..does my heart so cold to see it..? i think i'll give him a chance..it's not bcoz i'm a desperate-jomblo woman-or a girl-, hahaha sounds pathetic, but it's more like sth to lead me, to show me, to give me the answer abt my own feeling..

Well, we had discussed abt our relationship -without tellin' the 2nd character's name of course- many times..he asked me questions abt the possibilities of the next-relationship, how to manage an LDR, convinced me that i'm special, etc"..i don't know for sure...

What i know is, he'll be back in April to meet me..should i prepare sth for any possibilities..? hahaha, juz wait n c..