Stubborn

Dear God,

It hurts..
You know how I feel, rite?

I love someone who doesn't loves me back..
Being the last one to know is hurt coz once, I've been the first one..
With all the promises he made, I expected those will come true..its heart breaking when someone comes to you, promises to take care for it and gives it back..broken..it's hurt..

Dear God,

I want to stop asking 'why', but I can't.. I couldn't find the reason why these things happened.. Will You juz give me someone who really loves me as much as I love him, even bigger than me.. I already miss him, God..

I know I am stubborn and strong enuf to accept it.. I believe I can handle it wisely and forget him to let my heart try accept a new one..but I don't want to -yet-.. Am I wrong if I have a lil bit hope to get him back to me? I want him, God..

Yeah once again I know I'm a stubborn person..

Package from God

Dear God, dy ga mau pergi dari kepala nie, knp y? Makin ke sini semakin terlihat bahwa ternyata ada org yg sangat gampang untuk 'membuang' rasa sayang yang sudah diraih dengan susah payah..sedangkan aq, Kau pasti tau aq org yg seperti apa..susah untuk sayang sama org, dan sekalinya udh sayang, pasti sayang bgt..Kau tau itu kan ya Allah..
He's a perfect 'package' for me, but seems like not for me yah..?
Terima kasih sudah pernah 'menitipkan' dy untuk aq yah, everyday with him was nice, really nice ;) *yah kcuali pas ending"nya..
Will you send me a better one, God? I already missed him ;)

Another 'Lost' moment

Quick update from me..
Well, I had really bad time these couple weeks..i fell in love..
Yes, I fell in love with him..that was my first time :)
I thought I had sth real, sth beautiful, sth that I believed, sth..from him..
I’ll say, I loved him..I love him..
Well, it’s time for me to move on, rite? It’s a process I think..
I wished I had the best one, but he’s not..
I believe God will send me the best one for me, amin :)

Indescribable

I'm happy for you, kebo..
Maaf aq nangis lagi..aq seneng dan bangga sama kamu..tapi aq ga bs bo'ong, klo aq sedih..Maaf aq ga bs nahan air mata aq..ga mau berenti nie, hehehe..tapi aq janji it'll stop..soon..
Tetep jadi kamu yg aq kenal yah, Yang :)

:)

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