Become special moments

My Role Model

2011-02-26T15:16:00.002+11:00

Sebelum menulis tentang Role Model ini, sebenernya banyak banget yang mau di share di blog ini, entah itu tentang Phuket Trip, Susahnya punya Supervisees, Kebingungan dalam menuangkan ide yang udah berdesakan mau keluar dari otak gw, maupun tentang hal" kecil yang sering banget ngebuat gw berfikir dan mensyukuri apa yang ada sekarang, sampai akhirnya selalu ditutup dengan keluhan maupun senyuman ;)

Well, alasan kenapa gw nulis tentang Role model ini adalah, karena semakin kesini gw semakin menyadari bahwa mereka ternyata memiliki pengaruh yang cukup besar di hidup gw..No need to explain why Mom and Dad are put at the top of my Role model, rite? Am not talkin about them, since all of you (maybe 99% out of 100%) think that they are the very best persons ever. I am talking about my very bestfriend ;)

Madam Wulan Wicaksono

Perempuan...eerr..Wanita. Yes, she is a woman now ;)

Wanita mungil, cantik, pintar, baik, rajin, and all the good things u can tell, yes she is..Gw kenal Ulan dari semester 3. Sejak itu entah kenapa qta selalu sekelas sampe pada akhirnya qta lulus bareng dari UBinus. Dari awal gw udh kagum sama dia, dan semakin lama semakin mengagumi sosok Ulan (jiaaah, sosoook..berasa ky nulis novel deh gw :P). Gw semakin terkesan sama kemampuan dy yang luar biasa, orang yang semakin lama semakin tau arah dan tujuan yang akan dicapai (well, at least itu yang gw liat), secara bertahap dapat mewujudkan apa yang dicita"kan..Allah really bless you ;)

Ulan itu seperti seorang tokoh dalam tiap novel/cerita yang pernah gw baca..I dunno why, pokoknya mirip aja..Orang yang punya karir luar biasa sebagai Teman, calon ibu dan istri. Orang yang entah kenapa bisa selalu ada saat di butuhkan, pemberi inspirasi tanpa dia sadari, mendorong motivasi tanpa sengaja ;)

Ulan yang sekarang bertempat tinggal di Singapore semakin hari semakin disibukan dengan pekerjaan yang-entah-apa (kerjaan lo sebenernya apa sie lan..?), tapi ga ngebuat gw merasa jauh dengan dy..mungkin ini yang disebut bestfriend with heart (#nowplaying SM*SH - I Heart You..you know me so weeeeellll..i know you so weeeeelll) *cenat-cenut jumpalitan* *roftl*.

Keinginan dy untuk terus belajar dan semangat sosial yang sangat tinggi bener" ngebikin gw kagum dan berkaca pada diri sendiri. Setiap ngeliat Ulan gw jadi ngerasa malu. Tapi itu semua bukannya ngebikin gw minder, malah gw jadi makin semangat untuk bs melakukan yang terbaik.

Life is once, you'd better worth it.

Thank You Ulan ;)

Sholat Berjamaah

2011-02-02T05:25:00.001+11:00

Tadi sore pas magrib, kebetulan gw dan tim SA selesai training ttg salah satu module regional di kantor..udah waktunya sholat kan, jadilah gw buru" keluar tux segera melaksanakannya..gw barengan sama sie cebong yg kebetulan sholat di lantai yg sama..intinya, akhirnya qta sholat berjamaah, dy jadi imamnya..dg suara yg berat dan ayat" yg dibunyikan pake nada (yah scr dy singer, jd kebayang lah ya pasti bagus), gw berasa ky..woow, ini toh rasanya diimamin..rasanya enak bgt looh..sebenernya sie antara khusyuk n pengen ngakak, ahahahaha..secara gw ama dy berantem mulu (becandaan doank sie) klo di kantor, eh tiba" gw diimamin ma dy, hihihi..

Yah intinya, gw slalu suka sholat berjamaah, berasa kekeluargaannya dan memang berasa lebih khusyuk ;)

Jealous

2011-01-24T01:14:00.001+11:00

http://mysweetheart.tumblr.com

Why Are Girlfriends Jealous?

The main reason most girls are jealous is low self-esteem, insecurities, and lack of trust. Anyone can experience jealousy. Maybe she had a bad experience with a past boyfriend. Perhaps he cheated on her and she was really hurt over it. That would certainly cause problems of self-esteem.

One main reason girls tend to get jealous is over other girls, particularly ex girlfriends. They are worried that other girls might have something that they do not. Your girlfriend may feel that you could find other girls prettier, funnier, or smarter than she is. She may also be wondering if you still have feelings for your ex. All of these thoughts will lead to the fear that she could lose you.

A Year To Be

2011-01-17T01:25:00.000+11:00

Judulnya sie A Year To Be, but there'll be no anniversary ;) knp begitu? ya coz aq kan single, mwuahahaha..diitung", klo gw msh jalan sama Ari, bulan ini jd 1 th nya gw deket sama dy..Time flew fast yah..

Haiiiz, pas bgt gw nulis ini, lagu yg lagi muter di playlist gw jazz" n bossanova, jd rada" gmn gt yah boo..

Hmm, 1 lagi temen deket gw resign, semakin banyak yg meninggalkan nie..sekarang gw juga udah mulai apply" tux cari" yg baru, coz gw ngerasa memang udh saatnya..

3 years..almost 3 years, wow waktu yg cukup lama yah boo ;) moga" gw mendapatkan tempat baru yg lebih baik dari sekarang ini, amiiin ;)

2011

2011-01-03T02:12:00.000+11:00

Flashback to 2010's resolutions, kynya ga banyak yg tercapai..sayang sekali..malam ini dejavu lagi..gw duduk di kamar memikirkan apa yg harus tercapai di tahun ini, dan gw ga mau muluk", gw akan merealisasikan resolusi 2010 tsb ;)

Well anyway, i bought 3 tickets this year, yeaaay..!! I'll go to Phuket by Feb, Hongkong by May and Lombok - Bali by August, soooo excited..!!

I intend get my post graduate degree, hope i can get to UGM, amiiin ;)

Hope this year gonna be fierce ;)

Quando Quando Quando

2010-12-20T01:51:00.002+11:00

I Love this song since i heard it from the first time ;)
*Tnyata suara gw mayan lah yah boooo, hihihihi ;)

Pre-Wrap

2010-12-20T01:43:00.004+11:00

Ehehehehe, i feel like i wanna laugh when to write down here..

Well, as you know (or FYI), Ari had been in a relationship since last month. She's a nu person in his life. Don't ask where did i knew abt this, coz i just knew it..The point is, i had feeling that he wouldn't make it last with her, and guess what, they broke up..!!

I do feel like i wanna laugh..Am i mean? Whatever you say beb ;) I am laughing not because i love to see their broke, no no..I laugh because we're broke. Yes. I am thankfull of that..God shows me who he is now.

Thx God coz You remove him from my life, and my heart ;)

Belajar Ikhlas

2010-12-08T00:42:00.001+11:00

I got good feeling recently ;)

Satu hal yang dapat dilakukan oleh waktu adalah menetralisir keadaan, tanpa seseorang atau orang banyak melakukan sesuatu..Seperti gw sekarang nie, alhamdulillah perasaan ke Ari udah reda, ilang, bablas, terbang bersama angin dan hanyut terbawa air *jahh apa sie..

Klo kata orang, perasaan bs hilang jika sudah menemukan yang baru. Mungkin untuk sebagian orang teori itu sukses membantu, tapi bukan ga mungkin orang baru tsb malah dijadikan pelarian, ya kan?! Alhamdulillah bgt perasaan itu ilang dengan sendirinya. Lagi” pengalaman ini mengajarkan untuk bs bersikap bijak dan menerima dengan ikhlas ;)

Well, sekarang gw udah siap untuk menerima orang baru lagi ;)

Mood Boosting

2010-11-21T21:15:00.006+11:00

Hmm, where to start..

My feeling..Hmm it's getting better..Since he's in a relationship now, it's easier for me to ignore everything about him. It's easy for me to get closer and welcoming new guys in my life. Thx for him ;)

Last week when I went to Bandung, my bro and sis showed me there Korean reality show, named Running Man and We Got Married. Since then, i am addicted to them. It became my mood booster. I am willing to re-learn guitar.

Well, I actually have a guitar since Junior High School, but it is at my bro place now..Oooh i really want to learn it..I'll buy the new clasic Guitar (Nylon)..Really can't wait ^o^

I intend to learn French. I think it's a sexy language. I bought French and Japanese dictionary to learn without going to course, ehehhee..

I want to go to school and go to the new place to work..Pheew, lot of thing to do then..

Shocked

2010-11-11T20:34:00.001+11:00

Kamis lalu, pas gw pulang ke rumah, secara ga sadar ternyata charger
bb gw ketinggalan di kantor. Cari akal tux ngecharge hp itu, akhirnya
gw make lapie dan kabel data..iseng" buka fb n twitter via web..guess
what i've found..Ari is in a relationship..!!

Wooow, i was speachless..that's really fast..mu nangis rasanya..i was
on the phone when i saw the feed..sampe" omongan temen gw itu ga ada
yg gw dengerin..gw blank seketika..omg, how could he..?!

Gw bener" berasa dibohongin..segala ucapan dy ke gw tuh bullshit..!!

"there's only you"
"i wanna get married with you!"
"i love you"
"i don't wanna lose you"
"i love you 24hrs no matter what happen"

Gosh..stupid me trusted all he said..

Kecewa..kecewaaaa bgt..alasan sibuk n ga punya wkt skrg udh ga berlaku
lagi kyny..itu makin ngebuka mata gw lagi, bahwa dy ga bener" sayang
sama gw..

Sekarang gw di bandung, lagi ambil cuti 3 hari nemenin nenex n fam gw
liburan disini..jd keinget dulu wkt dy nyamper gw ke sini..ngobrol
sama nyokap, ketawa" bareng..jalan" bareng..those were beautiful..

Sekarang..smuanya emang cuma boongan..i am shocked, really
shocked..but that's fine, karena dg begini, gw harus bener" ngapus dy
dr kehidupan gw..

"Klo lo ngerasa ga bs hidup tanpa dy, coba dibalik. Bisa ga lo hidup
bareng" dy terus?" - Yumin

Waaaaw, pertanyaan yg skakmat..!! I always imagine having a lil' fam
with him, happy together with our kids..tapi gw ga pernah ngebayangin
hidup dg seorang 'Don Juan', dmn sering dikelilingi wanita, gampang
jatuh cinta n gampang melupakan orang yg sudah diberikan harapan
setinggi langit..

"A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life, to be
thankful for a good one". - Marjorie Kinnan

It's been twice my Dear God..i have enuf..would you please give me the
last one, to be my last 'stop' of hurt, hope and love? I pray to You..

Hellow Couples

2010-11-08T00:40:00.006+11:00

Hello Couple ;)

Couple months i have followed some couples which are my friends..I love to see their blogs..I love to see the love between them. Some of them are silly, some are cute, some are stupid naughty..

Reading them sometimes makes me smile, sad and jealous..Who doesn't want to be loved in return? I do..They do..You do..

Sometimes i questioning myself, why can't i be like them? Why can't i have a lasting relationship?

Let's juz say yesterday was not my day and i hope i'll get my life partner soon ;)

The Healing

2010-10-31T03:11:00.006+11:00

It's been a while..

2 months I didn't update this blog..Too much to be written here, I lost my mood when this page was opened..Am not ready to fill it up with the things I'd like to say..

But am ready now..

*The Break Up

Breakin' up from Ari was a..Heartbreak..A deep heartbreak..I thought he was the one..I was naive..I was stubborn..I was blind..He was just a professional sweet liar ;) I don't hate him, not at all..I admiring him for what he is, for what he achieved..Me, as a friend, really amazed of the things he had made..Me, as an ex, really disappointed of him..But then again, he coloured my day, even for a while..He was my rainbow..Maybe, he's the sweetest and the bitterest..

It's kind a hard for me living in the place where SLR is so easy to find, since it became so popular nowadays..It reminds me of him, it's identic to him..I had a lil' bit trauma to it..I've been in a position, where in a week, I was surounded by Photographers, hundreds of Photographers, three times in a week..Can you imagine being me..? Standing around them, hearing the sound of Shutters, seeing they taking pictures of the objects..It's suffering..I was stand, doing nothing, freezing until my friend pulled me out of there..

A week after the breaking up, I attended Ratih and Andre's wedding..I got the bouquet..!! Ahahahaha, I didn't know what to say, should I happy or sad of it..I was with The Guyz and they're just smile see it. I think they were the same with me, speechless..

Time will heal the pain..

Yes, it is..The more he disappears from me, the more I can forget him. He erased anything about me, Photos, Videos, all gone..He wants to erase me..That's ok..It proved that am too good for him..Well, I notice he had a cruch with a new one and has several close girls..It really shows how easy a word 'Love' is said without any meaning on it..Ouh, a lil bit sorry to all stewardesses and models, I hate you now ;)

Enough about him..He is moving on, I should do the same..

*I do something that I want to..

I did Capoeira..!! Yeeaaay, finally I made it..!! It was like 5 years ago I want to do that. It was fun, finally I met Andrew, the founders of Capoeira in Indonesia..Btw, I lost 4kgs in 4 times of practices..So good for you who want to lose the weight, heuheuheue..

I went to Galleries with Mayang..Oh what a sweet escape..I love ARTs..

I joined CF now, not to lose my weight, but to keep me healthy ;)

*The ex's marriage

Riyan and Nuy are married finally..I am happy for them..They got married in 101010, a special day, huh..Well, I came to the rehearsal with the main purpose to see the bride, since I never met her..Then I saw her..There's nothing I can say here *bbm or ym me for further information, LOL*..No regret at all coming there ;)

*The Promotion

Office is a place where the politic does exist..Nothing I can say here, too tired to think of it, too sick to talk about it..Well, a good friend of mine, which I think one of the greatest SA had resign after several important people did the same..

I got promoted as Head of GCM SA..Happy..? Don't know for sure..I just think it's good for my resume..

*Natural disaster

These couple days is being the hardest day for Indonesia..A Tsunami in Mentawai, an Earchquake in Wasior and a Mount Eruption in Jogyakarta..Many victims there..While they need help to live, our Public Representative (DPR) is going for 'sightseing-having fun-shopping' abroad..What the hell..Oooh I hate politic evenmore..

I hope by the world's help, all of them can be saved and heal from the traumatic..#PrayForIndonesia

*Love life

It's like a desert, huehuheue..I have no chrush with anyone..It's plain..Where everyone is busy planning their marriage, I am busy looking for the right guy..Tragic, mwuahahhaa..

*Plan

I have so much plans in my head..Still looking for the right path, the right time, and a bravery to realize them ;)

***
Am Healing..
;)

TheSingleWoman : “The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us”.
~ It hasn't started on me -yet-, I think..

IhateQuotes : “When the prince of your fairytale turns into the jerk of the story, it's time to grab a pen and change the end”.
~ Am working on it :D

TweetMoveOn : “I'm single not because nobody wants me. It's because the lucky one is still waiting to be chosen by me”.
~ ;)

Pray #2

2010-08-02T01:21:00.001+10:00

I love me and me only..but God, will You let me love someone who is destined for me now, may I ? I miss him already..

Year of Tears

2010-08-01T23:31:00.004+10:00

Yes, as stated before, this is my Year of Tears..bukan bermaksud cengeng, tapi terlalu banyak kekecewaan..
I've became a dramaqueen lately..
Kebahagiaan yg gw kira akan lasting itu udah ilang even sebelum tengah tahun, di lanjutkan dengan kabar temen deket senasib dan sepenanggungan dari th lalu bakal pergi ke Swiss paling ga tux jangka waktu 2 th, dan lagi" gw ditinggalkan oleh temen" paling deket gw di kantor, ga nanggung", 2 orang resign dan 1 nya menyusul sehabis lebaran..lengkap sudah kesedihan gw th ini..
Tahun ini banyak bgt air mata yg gw keluarin..ya ampun gw jd cengeng, ahahahaa..sejak kapan gw mau nangis"an ky gini coba? Me don't look like me..

Pending post

2010-07-30T01:53:00.001+10:00

Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dear God,
I think I’m ok now.. No more tears came from my eyes, even sometimes I feel miserable every time the zip memory comes in mind.
***
Friday, July 23, 2010
Dear God,
I’m sorry coz I broke up my words yesterday.. I cried hard.. Too many disappointment things for me.. I think this is my Year of Tears.. I feel disappointed not because of him, but because of my trusted friends.. I need to be heard, feel beloved, to be cared.. I need someone who can really stand by me in every possibility at the sad and good things of my life..
Call me egoist.. Maybe I am..
Maybe at this moment I’m counting down every little thing I’ve done as a friend to give the best I have.. Is it wrong to expect the same from someone I expected to..?
Yeah I know there are many ways to show your kindness and care for everyone.. But because of that.. I feel the emptiness.. So this is what an ‘empty’ word stands for..
Dear God,
Please heal me.. I feel miserable at the moment.. Cry is the best thing I can do to feel better now..

Stubborn

2010-07-02T02:48:00.004+10:00

Dear God,

It hurts..
You know how I feel, rite?

I love someone who doesn't loves me back..
Being the last one to know is hurt coz once, I've been the first one..
With all the promises he made, I expected those will come true..its heart breaking when someone comes to you, promises to take care for it and gives it back..broken..it's hurt..

Dear God,

I want to stop asking 'why', but I can't.. I couldn't find the reason why these things happened.. Will You juz give me someone who really loves me as much as I love him, even bigger than me.. I already miss him, God..

I know I am stubborn and strong enuf to accept it.. I believe I can handle it wisely and forget him to let my heart try accept a new one..but I don't want to -yet-.. Am I wrong if I have a lil bit hope to get him back to me? I want him, God..

Yeah once again I know I'm a stubborn person..

Package from God

2010-06-25T01:38:00.003+10:00

Dear God, dy ga mau pergi dari kepala nie, knp y? Makin ke sini semakin terlihat bahwa ternyata ada org yg sangat gampang untuk 'membuang' rasa sayang yang sudah diraih dengan susah payah..sedangkan aq, Kau pasti tau aq org yg seperti apa..susah untuk sayang sama org, dan sekalinya udh sayang, pasti sayang bgt..Kau tau itu kan ya Allah..
He's a perfect 'package' for me, but seems like not for me yah..?
Terima kasih sudah pernah 'menitipkan' dy untuk aq yah, everyday with him was nice, really nice ;) *yah kcuali pas ending"nya..
Will you send me a better one, God? I already missed him ;)

Another 'Lost' moment

2010-06-22T15:19:00.002+10:00

Quick update from me..
Well, I had really bad time these couple weeks..i fell in love..
Yes, I fell in love with him..that was my first time :)
I thought I had sth real, sth beautiful, sth that I believed, sth..from him..
I’ll say, ~~I loved him~~..I love him..
Well, it’s time for me to move on, rite? It’s a process I think..
I wished I had the best one, but he’s not..
I believe God will send me the best one for me, amin :)

Indescribable

2010-06-09T12:26:00.004+10:00

I'm happy for you, kebo..
Maaf aq nangis lagi..aq seneng dan bangga sama kamu..tapi aq ga bs bo'ong, klo aq sedih..Maaf aq ga bs nahan air mata aq..ga mau berenti nie, hehehe..tapi aq janji it'll stop..soon..
Tetep jadi kamu yg aq kenal yah, Yang :)

:)

2010-06-07T12:11:00.001+10:00

Ternyata saya orang yang cukup bersabar sampai saat ini..

Karma

2010-05-31T12:41:00.001+10:00

The fact

2010-05-23T15:20:00.000+10:00

http://simplynorule.tumblr.com/

The Distance

2010-05-17T01:50:00.001+10:00

I do

2010-05-16T16:52:00.008+10:00

Everyday

2010-05-12T16:09:00.002+10:00

-I wish I can be like this everytime i feel sad-http://simplynorule.tumblr.com

The Apple

2010-05-11T21:58:00.003+10:00

-Found the note which has been posted from Friendster time-

I wonder

2010-05-11T11:18:00.002+10:00

-http://simplynorule.tumblr.com/-

Please?

2010-05-10T11:35:00.003+10:00

Please hear my pray, God..

the seconds

2010-05-09T03:03:00.005+10:00

I'm missing you for 1.209.600 seconds

(Mencoba) Sabar dan Mengerti

2010-05-05T11:26:00.001+10:00

Gosh..hhh..buat beberapa orang yg pernah gw curhatin tiba”, pasti tau gw sedang mengalami apa..gw bimbang, gw sedih, gw mellow, sampe gw sakit..
Buat orang” yg udah kenal gw beberapa tahun ini pasti tau klo gw bukan orang yg cengeng, gw termasuk orang yg keras kepala, lebih mengutamakan rasio dibanding sama perasaan..tapi kali ini ga..huff..
I hate being like this..
But I’ll try to be more patient and understand the condition..I’ll try..

Menjaga sesuatu itu jauh lebih sulit dibandingkan pada saat menggapainya.

2010-04-28T11:34:00.003+10:00

Huuh, kalimat yg tepat sekali dengan keadaan saat ini. Saya sedang merasa jauh dengannya. Sie pacar sibuk banget yaah..well, ga bener” jauh sie, dy masih di jkt, ga pergi kmn” selain ke kantor dan ke rumah atau terkadang menjemput gw sehabis pulang dari kantor. Minggu lalu sewaktu gw pergi ke Bandung with fam, dy menyusul, padahal baru pulang dinas dari Lembang pada 11 pm, dan jam 11.30 pm dy langsung mengendarai mobil sendirian ke Bandung (bikin khawatir aja).
Tapii..gw merasa jauh..mungkin karena suatu kebiasaan baru, yaitu kerjaan yang deadlinenya hampir setiap hari, membuat waktu berinteraksi sangat berkurang..dratis. Tell me am spoiled, but that’s what I feel. Ya mungkin karena dari awal qta terlalu dekat yah, jadinya hal yg wajar seperti ini saja bisa menimbulkan pikiran yang aneh”.

Imissu hun..

Rethinking

2010-04-25T20:59:00.001+10:00

I need to talk.

Not to worry too much

2010-04-22T23:33:00.005+10:00

Punya pacar seorang yang berprofesi didunia media itu musti tahan batin dengan godaan" yg ada disekeliling pacarnya..Dunia yang bisa dikategorikan dengan kata 'glamourous', termasuk rokok, minum, clubbing, dan wanita” cantik nan seksi yg 'bertebaran' dimana”..
Pacar saya seorang Photographer, wajar kah jika saya khawatir? Sangat wajar..
Coz i worry too much, saya sedikit 'berkonsultasi' dengan teman saya, Desca, yang notabene memiliki pacar seorang Photographer juga, dimana pacarnya itu adalah mantan saya, wkakaka.. (ok, dunia memang sangat kecil). Dy berhubungan selama 4 th, cukup lama, dan ternyata rasa khawatir itu masih ada.
Berarti memang sangat wajar klo saya merasa seperti ini..
Percaya, kynya cuma 1 kata itu saja yang bs di pegang teguh untuk saat ini :)

Kebo Iseng

2010-04-18T14:33:00.001+10:00

The best one

2010-04-13T15:40:00.004+10:00

Ari juz got started his new job as Photographer (etc) in Kompas Media. His first task was to take pics of Ferrari F430 Spider, the yellow one, and he was SO LUCKY can drove it from AutoMall to Parkit Senayan through Sudirman st (>.< Ouugh, I envy you!).
A : “Yang, nanti jgn heran y klo banyak temen” kantor aku yg ngeadd fb n profpicnya di depan mobil” mewah smua, min Mercedes Benz deh”.
N : “Kamu ga ikutan? Pasang juga dunk sama sie kuningnya..”
A : “Mau sie, tp ga mau aq jadiin profpic aku..Walo semahal apapun harga mobil itu, tetep ga sebanding dengan wanita yg ada disebelah aku..”
N : “^o^”
Condition : He set our pic as his profpic.
Aaaw, that’s so sweeeet..!! The best words for this month..!!

Where are you?

2010-04-06T11:46:00.000+10:00

N : yang, kamu dmn? aku persis di depan aw
A : aku jg persis di depan aw
N : mana kamu ga ada?
A : ini persis didepannya beneran, berdiri ky patung pake baju merah ngejreng
N : mana aku ga liat, aku cuma liat orang pake baju merah tp bukan kamu
A : aku jg liat orang pake baju merah nih
N : kamu aw mana sih? airport soeta kan...?
A : yaiyalah masa juanda
N : ini aku udah berdiri didepan aw drtd, udah ky orang bloon
A : kok aku ga liat kamu ya, kamu ga liat aku?
N : nih ya, aku berdiri di depan aw, trus ada solaria. trus ada kfc
A : aku jg berdiri didepan aw, iya ada solaria, kfc jg ada

Location : Soekarno - Hatta Airport
Condition : We were standing in front of AW, at the different place, wkakakaa stupid..

Angot

2010-03-25T13:10:00.001+11:00

Sedang angot"an -lagi-
Ini kenapa yah belakangan gw sering ky gini, bs tiba" angot"an tanpa alasan yg jelas..bs tiba" dingin sama smua orang..
Hayah, mavkan yaah klo gw angot"an -lagi-

*Sedang aneh..

List of marriage

2010-03-22T12:57:00.005+11:00

Wew, semakin banyak saja yg married yah..Here's what i have to do : HUNTING baju buat dateng nikahan temen", wkakaka..
Eldut's Marriage

Hmmm

2010-03-19T12:39:00.003+11:00

Emotion

2010-03-18T12:56:00.002+11:00

Saya sedang emosi..
Bukan karena orang lain, tapi karena kondisi tubuh yg sepertinya sedang sangat nge-drop..cape..pegel..pusing..kepala panas..bawaannya jadi emosi dalam menanggapi hal" kecil sekalipun..

*Mav yah yg ngerasa saya jutekin bbrp hari ini

Sapa yg ngiri?

2010-03-15T13:01:00.007+11:00

Location : My house
Condition : Browsing & chatting with our own notebooks, and he had webcaming with Ulan.

Ari : "Ooh, aku tau..harusnya kita kissing truz webcamnya dinyalain biar Ulan ngiri".
Me : "Yee, nanti malah dia ngebales qta sama Nino, jadi qta yang ngiri..skakmat deh..".
Ari : "Wakaka, iya yah..nanti Ulan bales pas tengah malem..ngiri deh..".

Dasar dodol, wkakaka..

-Jaman masih muda-

Left Note

2010-03-15T12:49:00.002+11:00

I found this @11.30pm. That's sweet, hun ^o^

Love is in the air

2010-02-26T19:11:00.002+11:00

I got news..!!
A year having long haircut, getting’ bored with it, and Voila..!! I got nu short haircut..!! loooove it..!!
Looking back my posting abt Welcome 2010, I suddenly remember my last point of resolution, and am doin’ it now..
I open my heart and let it feels the love from someone who gives me that. He gives me his heart, love and care to me. I never had this kind a feelin’, where I can be myself and feel comfortable around him. Love this..
Love without borders. I heard that quote from one of Radio station while I was driving. I think that line much likely the same with what happen now. And for that border, I, unexpectedly had conversation with my mom and got the green light to be with him..!! Wow..
I do really enjoy this kind a situation.

High Criteria

2010-02-04T23:26:00.001+11:00

Td selesai sholat magrib, temen gw sempet nyeletuk:
Her : “ank” pada jalan sama co-nya nie Ca, gw sendirian disini, huhu..”
Me : “ya elah No, lo masih ada ayang nya, lah gw..!!”
Her : “ya tapi kan jauh Ca, jadi gw itungannya jomblo..lo sie kebanyakan milih, criteria nya ketinggian, hihihi..”
Me : “heee..??!!”

Gw ga pernah ngerasa punya criteria apapun soal co, ga seperti dulu waktu jaman skul, dmn smua ce menginginkan co yg putih, tinggi, jago basket, ank band, dll..am quite mature enuf to have that kind of imagination –face the reality-
Ternyata, temen” gw –yg tdk terlalu mengenal gw- beranggapan bahwa gw punya criteria yg terlalu tinggi ttg seorang pasangan..am i..? i don’t have any criteria. I wish to have someone who can makes me feel comfortable with him. Is that a criteria? I don’t think so..bcoz u gotta have that feeling if u want to be with someone..
Huhu, gw mengkhawatirkan yah? Masa sie gw ga bs dapet co Cuma karena ‘kenyamanan’ itu menjadi sebuah batasan? Am in the need of love, wkakakak..huff..
Ooh, satu lagi..gw tdk merasa menjadi seseorang dengan title ‘high quality’, I am an ordinary girl..

Caused by : java.lang.AppraisalError

2010-01-30T14:55:00.002+11:00

Hihihihi..pas baca title nya dah tau dunk ini ttg apa..

Appraisal, salah satu event yg paling ditunggu" oleh smua karyawan, sama seperti di kantor gw, org" dah pada rusuh dr bulan des 2009 kemaren. Ekspektasi org pasti akan tinggi (ya iyalah y, sapa yg ga mau gaji gede) secara kerjanya jg dah ky kerja rodi..maklum, klo kerja di perusahaan IT kerjanya bs 24/7, lembur teruuus..

Project melimpah dengan resource yg sedikit bikin karyawannya jadi stress, kadang multitasking juga..cape lama", jd wajar dunk klo ngarep kenaikan yg tinggi, hehehe..

Truz apa jadinya klo event yg di tunggu" akhirnya datang juga, tp appraisal yg di harapkan justru bikin kecewa..? jadinya bubar jalan..haha..

Saatnya pindah ke lain hati..

Plain

2010-01-18T00:40:00.002+11:00

Seperti Yoghurt Cimory yg Plain..itulah hidup gw sekarang.
Ga punya gebetan rasanya jd sepi, punya gebetan bikin ga konsen kerja, ada yg ngegebet juga kadang bikin males..heew, mau gw apa yah?

"Duh males bgt nie", kalimat yg keluar hampir setiap hari -almost 3 times a day, dah ky minum obat yah- yg bikin gw jd ga punya semangat kerja. Dapet kerjaan yg gampangnya ampun"an aja males ngerjainnya, hihihii..dasar manusia..!!

I REALLY need sumthin nu..it's too plain..

I wanna taste Vanilla..

Erase

2010-01-13T13:23:00.000+11:00

I already deleted my inbox..huhu, quite sad, coz there are many memories with Roy ToT, hux..

Cin(T)a

2010-01-08T01:25:00.002+11:00

Ok, gw akui gw emang basi bgt blm ntn This Great Movie..!! gw br ngeh ada nie film setelah gw balik dari Hanoi, yg ga sengaja liat beritanya di salah satu news online Ind. Gw langsung googling saat itu tux tau ceritanya ky apa, akhirnya gw nemu webnya.

http://www.godisadirector.com
Geez, i love it from the first time i opened this web..

Ga perlu gw ceritain juga yah nie film ttg apa. Mungkin emang udh ketebak endingnya bakal ky gmn. What i love from this movie is, the way it shows us great scenes & words that can make u think, 'iya juga y', or make u stand still in silent and find the meaning of them.

“Why do You create us differently if You only want to be worshipped in one way?”

Itu salah satu kalimat yang pasti selalu diingat orang, sama seperti gw slalu ingat kata” tsb. Why?

Gw semakin cinta sama film ini (walo gw blm ntn) coz i have almost the same experiences with Cina and Annisa (bedanya gw ga jadian aja, hihihi). I caught myself crying when i watched the movie trailer, wkakakaka..

Semakin gw liat sie Cina (Sunny Soon), makin gw suka ama cina, wkakaka..oh iyah, dy ank DKV '02 nya Binus loooowh, makin suka deh sama Sunny, hihihi..

Sejak gw tau ada film Cin(T)a, gw dah ga sabar pengen beli DVD nya..
(Kapan keluar nie DVD? Gw bener” dah ga sabar pengen punya koleksinyaaa >o<)

-Love Cina-

My 2009’s Trips

2010-01-02T02:04:00.005+11:00

Wow, it’s such a long time I don’t update my blog. I’m about to wrap up my Year Trips in 2009. I’m not a traveler, but I think I’m going to start become it, hueheue..It’s kind a pleasure telling about ur trip through the writing. And here, am going to tell u abt mine.

Singapore (May – July 2009)
This is the 1st unconditional country that I attended. Why unconditional? Bcoz I have no intense to travel there even I wanted to. I went to Spore only for transit reason bcoz at that time I had several business trips to Vietnam.
One thing kept on my mind about Spore is that I stayed in Changi airport for a night waiting for the next flight to Jakarta, and I went nowhere there but going around the airport..Boring..Yeah I know such a poor coz I had a chance to explore Spore and I didn’t use it.
Well, at least now I have a plan to have a holiday there for couple days ^o^

Vietnam (May – July 2009)
I didn’t want to go to this country at start bcoz of its internal conflict and the fact that Vietnam is a Communist Country. It was such a long story until I went there.
I stayed In Hanoi near Hoan Kiem Lake © Nguyen The Hai for about 1st 3 weeks. I was surprised bcoz even it is a small city, the place was so clean. The government clean the roads every mornin’, imagine that..I believe we’r far from them in keeping the freshness of the city.

As stated in http://www.wordtravels.com/Cities/Vietnam/Hanoi, I enjoyed staying in Hanoi. Love the food so much, very tasty, but unfortunately it’s kind a hard for moslem to find Halal foods. This city of lakes gave me lil’ bit relaxation juz by sat under the trees around the lake.
Week 1, I went to Halong Bay, one of the World Wonders of nature finalist. It was nice. I went with average boat in private, hohoho..really nice view and food. I entered Sung Sot cave which full of lamps.

Week 2, for Perfume Pagoda. U can read the review in http://www.footprintsvietnam.com/Destinations/Perfume-Pagoda.htm. I like the way to go there bcoz we had to take the boat and cross the river to go there. Up in the mountain, exist Temples under the cave. I didn’t really like being there bcoz of the smokes. Ooh, i have new little girl friend, she's 9 year old & called Nina. She & her mom comes from California traveling arround the world (am jelous am jelous >o<)

Week 3, we were going to Ho Chi Minh museum (don’t know exactly it’s name) near the President Palace in Hanoi. Quite nice, they really maintain it nicely. Ooh i also met a new friend, he's a France called Ilyes Ayari, a really nice person ^o^
The conclusion of the trip is I like Hanoi, love it except the food contain pork (which almost every food contain it) and the people (read : my client), hihihi ^o^

East Java – Surabaya – Jember – Bromo (July 2009)
A week after I went back home, I went to Jember attended Ulan & Nino’s marriage. I went with Team Guyz consist of Mayang, Tee, Shinta, Tiwi, Ratih, Sasha, Intan, Kadek, & Manik. Not only come into Ulan’s marriage, we’re also went to Bromo. Not much I can say except beautiful. The mountain was so beautiful. We’re lucky coz the weather was clear and the sunshine hasn’t risen at the time we arrived.

Lombok - Bali (November 2009)
Last trip are Lombok and Bali. I have so many things to say about this trip.

Lombok
I didn’t know much about Lombok before go there. Tiwi is the one who convinced me to go there. Well, I was wavered to chose between going to Singapore or Lombok – Bali. She convinced me by gave me lots of review about them. Then I agreed to to there with my friends.
Funny thing is, they, who went with me to Lombok – Bali were stranger each others, except with me. I went with Tiwi, Jere, Ratih, Robin Tjap & Robin Olisa. They didn’t know each other except Ratih & Robin Tjap, coz they are couple (huuu, u guyz made us jealous, it was like ur pre-honeymoon, huh, hihihi..).
Lombok was incredible, amazing, beautiful and loveable and all amazed things that words can say. I love Lombok. I love the seashore, I love the air, the water, I love the citizen, I love Lombok..!! Oh, except the weather bcoz it was too hot. It burnt my skin, huhu ToT

We stayed at Gili Trawangan, one the the small island in Lombok for 3 days. Day 1, we were cycling with rented bicycle through the island. It took about 3 hours rode it. Day 2, we snorkeled through 3 Gilis, Gili Trawangan, Gili Meno and Gili Air.
We spent the night by walking around the café, yeap café. There are many cafes provided may food, especially seafood (of course) and Mushroom beer.
Maybe u can’t imagine what I wrote here, I juz can say, see it by urself ^o^

Bali
Day 3, we went to Bali from Lombok. Well, Bali didn’t impress me much, maybe because I went to Lombok 1st and it amazed me ^o^. Day 4 & 5, We went to many Temples from Bedugul, Kintamani, Monkey Forest, Tanah lot, Dreamland and Sukowati. Day 6 we rented motorcycles and goin' arround Kuta where Jere was't able to drive it at all & that was his 1st time drive while i was as his passenger (praying when he was driving it) , hihihi..
Bali..not much i can say coz i bet all of u been there, hihihi ^o^

Overall, I can say my life is BEAUTIFUL...!!

-Alhamdulillah-

Welcome 2010

2010-01-01T15:16:00.002+11:00

Tahun cepet banget berganti yah..ternyata 1 tahun itu cepet bgt, ga berasa..gw masih inget last year waktu pergantian tahun 2008 ke 2009, gw duduk dikamar, memikirkan resolusi kedepan..setelah berjam - jam duduk (dengan so' serius), gw tetep ga nemu 'what i want & have to do'. Akhirnya gw ga punya resolusi d tux th 2009.

I'm the one who let things flow as they should flow. Bukan berarti gw ga punya keinginan sie, cuma blom tau aja mau gw apa..Well, dengan tidak memiliki Resolusi -target- bukan berarti tahun tersebut berjalan dengan tdr menyenangkan bukan? Buktinya -alhamdulillah- gw punya kesempatan tux pergi ke luar negri walo dengan tujuan business trip yg secara tdk langsung cara pandang gw berubah terhadap apapun yg ada di dunia ini. Gw punya cerita seru tentang relationship status gw dengan beberapa co, dan mantannya salah satu co tsb. Gw punya tambahan banyak teman ^o^ dan merasa kehilangan beberapa teman juga :(

Yang pasti, gw suka th 2009..many memorable things whether good or bad, but still love it ^o^

2010

To be honest, gw sama sekali blom punya resolusi..kejadian yg sama dengan th lalu, gw duduk sendiri & mikirin resolusi gw itu. Banyak tuntutan ke gw sie, soal S2, soal Jodoh, soal Kerjaan..But once again, i'll let things happen to me.

But, gw ga sepenuhnya blank soal resolusi ini. I want to fix several things and hope it will last forever.
1.Keep in touch with my friends. Semakin hari gw semakin sadar klo gw semakin kehilangan mereka. Bukan karena sombong, tp kesibukan -so' sibuk- yg memaksa.
2.Fokus. Yeah yeah, old story..gw suka ga fokus terhadap apapun yg sedang gw lakukan, dampaknya jd suka ngaret deh.
3.Intens with my fam.
4.Ngajiiiiii..!!
5.Mulai memikirkan mu sekolah dmn -!@#$%^&*-
6.Semakin membuka diri terhadap org” baru yg berdatangan ^o^

Well, moga” smua bs berjalan dengan baik yah..amiiin ^o^

Movin' On

2009-12-29T02:06:00.001+11:00

Everyone has movin' on, am stuck...
it's not that i don't want to move on, but juz don't know where to move..

Urrgh >.<

Hilang

2009-12-19T00:06:00.002+11:00

Well, sebenernya gw pengen post tentang Trip recap gw slama th 2009 ini, but gw pending dulu coz masih dalam proses pengerjaan, hihihi..tiba" pengen nulis hal ini aja..

Sebenernya dah lama sie pengen curhat disini, tp ga sempet & klo pun ada kesempatan, malas pula..

Eniwei, belakangan gw ngerasa ada yg ilang aja..ilang kesempatan, ilang waktu, ilang semangat, bahkan ilang temen..ilang temen disini sie bukan dalam arti sebenernya yaah, masih pada sehat" aja koq, dan semoga sehat selalu, hehehe ^o^ ilang temen disini adalah dalam artian kurangnya intensitas antara gw ke mereka, di karenakan beberapa faktor 'hilang' diatas dan sebagainya..

Gw akuin gw sibuk dan gw yakin mereka juga sibuk. Ada yg kerjanya menggila, ada yg sibuk dengan kuliah dan tugas"nya, ada yg pergi" terus, ada juga yg ilang entah kemana dengan sendirinya. I've tried to contact u guyz, biasanya sie by YM, tp kynya suka ga nyampe y msg gw..inetnya lg dodol x yah, sama ky inet gw yg makin lama makin cupu, hueheuehuee..

Heew, life's unconditionally changed yah..kangen ih..

Inspiration Point

2009-10-14T19:54:00.004+11:00

Weew, quite long that I never put any words in my blog, huh..

Well, dunno where to start..
Maybe I’ll start from my work zone..

Well, I can say that my work is totally a mess. Not that I cannot do the job well, but it’s more to the office management issue. I fed up tellin’ abt this. Well anyway, the more I do my job, the more I know that the suggestion is playing a big rule. Why can I say that? It’s bcoz I realize when u don’t put the problem into a big thing, u will not feel suffer of it, but when u put it as the most influence thing in ur work, then hell..u will feel burden.

Like Norman Vincent Peale said, “How you think about a problem is more important than the problem itself - so always think positively”. Well, I agree of what the quotes saying. That’s why nowadays, I try to fill my day with many positive thoughts and hanging out with inspirational person.

Talking about an inspirational person, I have a friend who fulfills criteria of it. I met him in Rotaract occasion couple months ago. He’s nice, very smart and intelligent person.. Not only that, easy going and has the same way of hanging out with another made me close with him easily. And u know what, he is a cute Chinese (as u know, am a Chinese lover), wkakakaka.. owkeeyh, focus on his personality..! As I jotted down before, he is such an inspirational person for me. He knows what he wants and knows how to achieve it. He knows the color of his life whether it’s black or white, while me, I can say that I -now- see my future life in a Grey color ^o^

Not that am saying that my other friends are not an inspirational person. Lucky me, am surrounded by many talented person in my life. I wanna be like them, can give many positive energy to my surroundings ^o^

Anyway, I attended a workshop held by Rotaract organization. We went to Puncak. First day was fun, we were playing a game named Exoro Game. Very nice game where u need to put ur full attention to this game. FYI, this game has been finished in 5 hours..!

Second day was also a very hectic and inspirational one. We played the Exoro Game in the real world, called Exoro Live, where all functional in this game must be implemented in the real world. Aah, I didn’t tell u abt this game, huh..This game is about how to create money from minimum capital. The game is more like Monopoli game, but much more complicated.

I can tell that my life for these couple weeks is HAPPY..!!

***
Oouuuu, I have a plan with my friends to go for holiday, yeeeaaaayyy…!!! Finaalyyy..!!! I do really need a refreshing ^o^

Yes i'm ready

2009-09-10T21:30:00.000+10:00

This is the third days he didn’t call me..well, it shows me enuf that I did d rite decision, rite..? I already knew the consequences by told him that I don’t like being the one who’s been storied abt his x gf. Jealous ? Maybe a lil’ bit..but that’s ok, I won’t regret my decision. Am the one who’s not giving him a chance to talked. So this is my risk. Losing someone who’s filled my days with smiles, phones, jokes, and everything..am ready to lose it..

The Past

2009-09-09T11:19:00.001+10:00

Why can’t people get over the past..?
Is it bcoz the past has the most beautiful moment for u?
Is it bcoz the past has intrigue thing for u?
Is it bcoz u’d done sth bad?
Is it bcoz the past had done sth bad to u?
Is it bcoz u r totally -stuck- in love with one person?
Is it bcoz u r so stupid can’t face the future?

Why do I always get involved with people like u..?!!

The question

2009-09-07T01:38:00.000+10:00

Someone asked me couple days ago,
her : “caca, r u fallin' in love..?”
me : “whaaat..? how come u ask me that question?”
her : “i dunno, u look different with the last time i went to ausie”
me : “really..?”
her : “r u?”
me : juz gave a -question mark- smile

My question is, “am i..?”

My culmination has come..

2009-08-21T20:35:00.001+10:00

Finally, segala hal yg udh gw tahan sejak di Viet, tumpah smua pas kemaren gw lg kerja dikantor..sebel, kesel, muak, campur aduk smuanya..lembur tiap hari yg bikin badan gw rasanya remuk smua, ditambah lagi banyak org yg punya expektasi berlebihan ke gw tanpa mikirin gw sanggup ato ga menuhin smua permintaan mereka itu, huff..
Lots of pressure there..gw ngerasa terbebani dengan smua yg ada, kerjaan, tim manajemen, client yg rese, org yg tiba” ikut campur sama urusan gw..smua campur aduk..slama ini gw slalu berusaha tux bs tetep keliatan seneng di depan mereka, tux nutupin sebenernya gw ky gmn, tp kemaren ga bs..udh ga tahan lagi, akhirnya gw nangis juga, whahaha, cupu yah..
Temen gw sempet comment ke gw sehabis ikutan meeting ttg project gw ini, “gila ca, ga heran tiap abis meeting lo slalu keliatan stress”, hahaha..it's juz a piece of what i feel honeeey..
Gw ngerasa childish banget waktu akhirnya gw kalah sama tekanan itu..and u know what's hurt so bad from that? When -finally- u realize that no one for u who will always be there for u..someone u can rely on..in d end, i can only rely on myself.. T_T
Cao dr kantor jam stgh 9 malem, br dapet bus jam 9, tiba” ketemu sama Putra, salah satu temen SMA gw yg bandel tp baik, huehue..dy makin nyadarin gw klo life sucks, but it's sucker when u feel burden anytime bad things come to u..huff..yeap i know Put, i was too childhish facing all of d probs, i'll try to fix it now..
Saking mumetnya gw, akhirnya gw memutuskan hr ini stay at home, biar aga tenangan dulu, heew..huff..

Mana..?

2009-08-18T02:30:00.001+10:00

Aaaaa....pengen punya pacar, wkakakaka..

Lingkungan gw ga jauh” sama kantor..mana bs memperluas pergaulan yah klo gini mulu, stuck di kantor, ampir tiap hari lembur..berangkat & pulang ga ada matahari, huff..ketemu sama temen lama juga jarang..no time..jadinya no life..sampe rumah masih harus ngerjain kerjaan kantor T_T, ky sekarang nie..dikejar deadline 30 hari mengejar target, hahaha..masih mending klo pasang target ky film 30 hari mencari cinta, lah gw..madesu >.<

Temen gw bilang klo gw high quality jomblo..hellooow, i don't wanna be a jomblo for entire of my life..!! gila apa..heew..ya ga sedesperate itu banget sie, msh ada bbrp org yg nyatain k gw jg..tp gw anggep temen doank..klo gw il-feel, gw bs ngejauh (& biasanya Mayang suka ngomelin gw klo gw dah mulai il-feel ga jelas :D) intinya, blom sedesperate itu being a jomblo..

Tp belakangan, berasa sepi..cape kerja, rumah jauh..berangkat subuh pulang tengah malem, gituuu terus tiap hari, huff..cape..pengen ada yg meratiin lagi, pengen ada yg 'ngatur' lagi, hahahaha..manusia emang banyak maunya yah ^o^

Lalalala, pacar, dimana dirimuuw..? (sounds a lil' bit pathetic, huh)

Anywaaay, kynya sie mantan yg satu itu punya target baru d, biasanya klo dah pasang status aneh” tuh tandanya lagi deket sama yg lain – selain pacar tentunya..duuh ayaaank”, kapan mu berubah sieee..grow up dude..!!

Oyah, waktu gw bday, org pertama yg kasih gw selamat tepat di jam 00:00 itu..ya sie jerk itu..heew, mabh yah Maaay, u r d runner up in time, but still d number one that i 'accepted'..pas dapet sms, gw dah excited tux baca, eeh ternyata dr dia..bt mendadak gw, wkakkkaa..i know lah BB punya app yg bs set sms for birthday, jd i know dy pake SmsScheduler wkt kirim msg k gw, he wouldn't stayed only to send me an sms..huff..

Yaah, besok senin lagii..malasnya..ada meeting pula, huff..

Sisa cuti masih 10 hari..kemana y kemana y..pengen liburan..lalalala..

-lagi bosan dengan segala rutinitas yg ada-

No Time

2009-08-16T20:52:00.001+10:00

No Time

Yeap, that's me who has no time for LIFE..i have overtime everyday in d office coz of d tight little-messy timeline of project..huff..i can't complain..'customer is d king is', a gud phrase to tell u abt what's goin' on..

Bored bored bored..working almost everyday & nothing fun to do..aaaah..i want to have a holidaaaaay..!!

Heeeew =.='

test

2009-08-03T01:52:00.001+10:00

error nie, ck ck ck..

Trip Recap

2009-07-21T01:25:00.001+10:00

Recap for all of my Business Trip

Sorry for jotting down very late. I have a lil prob with my email in this blog, coz i use the hotmail, not the gmail. It's a bit confusing to change it while it should be very easy to change the email address here, hahaha..not working with my bachelor degree in Binus, huh..

Anyway, i want to tell u abt my 2nd business trip in Hanoi..it was sucks..i was with someone who couldn't enjoy the trip. Stayed all day long in d hotel, did nothing fun, only work and work..i used to go somewhere with my old partners, but these time, we went nowhere..bored..yeap, bored..a perfect word to say it all..

I had chance stayed there for abt 3 weeks..one week for worked, another week stayed @ the hotel and the last week for bored culmination..!! Ooh, i remember we went to the see the Water Puppet, one of the most popular show in the world, held exactly at the Hoan Kiem Lake city where we were stayed. That's all..no camera (i actually brought it but it was useless coz the charger was missin'), no new place to be seen..huff..boring boring boring..

We both were really bored with the place and also the client, whose seems didn't know what they want for this business..means that it's useless staying there coz they had no idea what kind of bussiness that they wanted. Bcoz of that, we decided to back earlier. Unlucky, the flight was full booked until the next week..ck ck ck..What the hell was goin' on in Singapore until all the flight to Jkt were full until the next week..? the one that left was the 1st flight on Sunday, which means we had to stayed for a nite in Singapore..That's not bad, it'll be worst if we had to stayed in Hanoi for another week, huh..We took the choise..

Owkeeeyh, we stayed one nite in Spore..i thought i could be fun, staying there and we could do sightseeing there..but crap..my partner didn't want to go anywhere but the Terminal..hellooooow..omg..i did really do trip with the wrong person..can u imagine we stayed all nite long..only in the Terminal..!! i felt juz like Tom Hanks in his movie -The Terminal- staying there doin' nothing but sit down and watching movie, my partner fell asleep @ 11 pm, ahahhaha..yeah rite..he fell asleep..damn..i couldn't sleep until 3 o'clock in d mornin', ck ck ck..how could he had a gud sleep in that kind of place? The seat doesn't even comfortable to be slept..

Hhh, what a trip..

Back to Jakarta, i was a lil' bit confuse of the things that i should do..i don't know what to do in d office..i stayed near Ratih, where it belongs to QA's area, not the SA's..but what the hell, i need more time to get used to with the office's environment -again- i was saved by the bell bcoz of Ulan's marriage which made me bought a ticket to Surabaya and could avoide going' to Hanoi for the 3rd times, yiiiihaaaa...!!! am feelin' guilty lil' bit coz i feel like i screwed my job desc in this project..Sorry partner, i don't want to spend another time with u there..

Enuf for Hanoi, Let's get to the best part..

Not goin' to Hanoi doesn't mean that am not goin' anywhere..Me and some of my friends were going to Jember for Ulan's marriage..sth that everybody's waitin' for finally come..it was such a nice trip..we had a chance goin' to Bromo..what a beautiful place, and cold one of course..we were freeze there coz of the cold, hueheuee..

Ulan, finally married..she's become the 1st one who gets married..congratulation to u my dear, live happily ever after, owkeyh ^o^

Here's a lil -unimportant- part for this blog..I want to talk abt him again -that lil' bastard-, but i decide not to do that..the only thing that i want to let everybody knows is that i hate him..that's all..

Well, i think that's the recap for my-lost-nowhere-blog, hopefully i have a will to do blogging everytime i have the chances..not everyday of course, but everytime when i think it's the best time to tell it to the world..

Cao...

mampir jkt

2009-06-04T11:29:00.002+10:00

This is my 3rd days in jkt, setelah senin kemaren gw balik k sini dari Hanoi..gw kira gw bakal di sini terus @ least sampe 1 bulan ke depan, but ternyata gw musti balik lagi ke sana hari minggu ini T_T

Last nite gw ketemu sama Rara & Rizki...haduuw, kangen sama 2 makhluk ituh..we went to Elbow Kemang..they got wine while me, Orange juice (i don't drink anyway ^0^)..badan gw remuk" sie, tapi bela"in d dianter pake motor (sampe masuk angin T_T) demi bs bareng ama sie Rizki, wakkaka..mantanku yg 1 itu getting mature :) love it..!!

Well anyway, td pagi gw ke kantor naik metromini yg sering gw naikin..ada pengamen yg lagunya -haduw males bgt d- jadul bgt & ga ngerti itu lagu sapa -ciptaan dy sendiri x yah-, tapiiii...that 'pengamen' was smiling, & itu senyum yg tuluuus bgt..it makes me feel like i want to give my best smile today :)

*thx yah pak 'pengamen', paling ga gw dah dapet sedikit semangat pagi ini mengingat hari ini kerjaan gw bakal banyak bgt ^0^

Nice wiken ^0^

2009-05-16T23:17:00.003+10:00

It's a week in Vietnam, so far i love this country..many places to go, quite near, not too far i mean..many gud places which become the gud spots to take pics, i believe my friends r dying for this, wkakakaka..like today, we went to Halong bay..aaw, it's a must c place u know, sooooo gud ^0^

Well anyway, dunno why gw masih mikirin sie player yg 1 itu..he said that he broke up with her, but the relationship status in fesbuk is still like that..huff..seems like nothing happen, nothing change..what happen to meee...? aaaah, like no other man, Nissa..? ck ck ck...

dia

2009-05-13T01:17:00.002+10:00

Well, mau sedikit colongan tentang dia..u can say that i am stupid..i juz ended my relationship with a 'player'..i can say he is a player, coz i think that's the rite word to describe him..i don't want to believe his words, but i do..i don't want to hear the story abt the x-gf, but i do..i don't want to contact him, but i do..

I lost my trust in him, i don't believe in what he says anymore, but somehow, i also believe when he tried to convinced me with his nice-tease-convince, but when i c the truth, i suddenly build a wall to trust his words..i doubt every single words coming from him..

Actually i am really stupid..i know that he can't move on from her..i know they both r feel possessive each other..they want each other..he's a wishy washy guy, afraid of everything especially with her, who always drive his life..or they both r like that..? dunno..huff..

I don't know if i love him or not..all i know, i feel very comfy every time i talk with him, even i don't know he feels the same or not..he said he loves me, until now..should i believe in him..? i want to, but infact i am not..i don't know what i feel abt him..huff..

Stupid girl..

@ Vietnam

2009-05-12T23:45:00.002+10:00

Owkeeyh, gw sekarang lagi ada di Vietnam, my 1st time in here..like yogya i think..bangunannya tua" tapi terawat, public rests nya juga rapih & bersih", banyak spot" bagus tux foto", hohoho..danaunya, guedeee..namanya west like..banyak monumen" pula, nice place for tourists..

Kenapa gw bisa nyasar ke Viet..? well, i do the business trip with my bos & my PM..ga enak klo pergi gini tapi masih kerja, bawaannya malah ga bs istirahat, huff..musti bikin ini, bikin itu..dah gt yaaah, bikin emosi banget nie Hotel..bilangnya sie bintang 4 yax, klo di bandingin sama yg di indo mah dah ky hotel melati, wkakakaa..

Seru sie disini, cuma yg bikin ga tahan tuh pengendara motor sama sepedanya buanyak bgt & ga beradap..klo di indo, orang bunyiin klakson cuma klo udh kepepet, lah disini, tiap brp detik pasti klakson, hihiih..dah gt yah, klo ada yg nyebrang jalan juga tuh motor ga peduli, ck ck ck..much better in Ind lah y klo soal traffictnya..

Well, maybe i'll stay for abt 1 month, or could be more than that..tekanan kerjanya bakal tinggi kynya, musti extra work nie..

Anywaaaay, waktu gw mu berangkat ke Hanoi, gw kan transit ke Changi dulu, nah gw janjian sama dy..he went there, tp gw nya ga bs kluar ktm ma dy, hihihi..mabh yah, padahal gw pengen bgt ktm ma dy..sayang skali..later lah klo pas mu cao ke jkt, gw coba tux ktm ma dy..

Urgh, so sleepy..i need my beauty sleep..huff..

Finish

2009-05-02T18:33:00.002+10:00

20 days with that status, now back to reality..single again, hihihi.. don't regret my decision to be like this, i regret chose to be the last one for him, but infact that i'm not..i should choose to be the 1st one who broke his heart, then i'll get the medal, or even the gold cup, huff..
A player should be punished, but it's not me who have right do it, let things happen juz the way it will..later he'll get karma, hahahaa, hopefully he realize it before the karma's come..
Lucky me that not give my heart to him, huff...

Think that i'm not the one

2009-05-01T01:53:00.001+10:00

Have u ever think that u r really the one...? or it's juz what u think but infact u r not..i'm thinking of it rite now..sad..can't get over her from him, never..her shadow will come with us whenever & whereever we go T_T

2 weeks

2009-04-26T03:36:00.002+10:00

Things r goin' really beautiful in d past..makanya, hal yg paling gw suka itu adalah waktu masa" pdkt, klo dah jadian bawaannya malah uring"an, ck ck ck..like now, we r soooooo busy together abt our own job n the condition juz different rite now..huff..i have no guts to say that i want him to be juz like before..i miss the 'old' him..

Tadi bbrp temen gw msg & telp gw, ngasih tau gw tux liat fesbuk dy, ternyata ada foto mantannya..yeah i know klo dy lg hangout together with his friends, which is, she could be in there & kenyataannya beneran kan she's there..well..gw biasa aja sie tadinyaaaa...tp koq jadi berasa heboh bgt yaaah..mana gw ga bs tlp dy, ck ck ck..y su, gw pulang dengan feeling ga jelas, gw marah, jeles, ato justru biasa aja..? gw juga ga ngerti..i logged-on fesbuk, n found her pic on his fesbuk..suddenly i got the 'x'-syndrom, wkakakaka (hanya gw & rara yg tau)..

Well..jujur aja, gw typical orang yg gampang il-feel..soooo..don't blame me if my feeling for u could be gone..

a week

2009-04-18T21:09:00.003+10:00

Owkeyh, i want to tell u what's on my mind..having an LDR is sucks, ga enak..standart aja sie, no time, we're busy each other, having no time for us even for ourself..cliche huh..yeaah, i try to understand his job lah klo gt, ck ck ck..

*ketula dapet co programmer, wkakaka..

Well anywaaaaaaaay..my PM told me that the company wants to send me n him to Vietnam for GCM product for e-banking in there..wew, i'm not ready..my friends tell me that i have to go, this is a gud chance..i think so..but i don't know lah, belom tentu diizinin ma bonyok gw kan..

Job oh job..

the last one for love

2009-04-12T22:21:00.002+10:00

Yeap, this is the day i finally found d sureness..i know where my position rite now, i know how should i decide sth..
So, instead of being the 1st one, i decided to be the last one for love..
Happy..
Strange..
Happy again..
n then
Jealous, wkakakaka ( since the x-gf keep irritating me even she's not doin' it straight away, but quite annoying, heuheuehue..)

*Thx for the white roses & a forehead thingy, quite romantic ^0^

noted

2009-04-12T12:39:00.000+10:00

Today..noted..
C y for couple months again ^o^

one more day

2009-04-12T03:48:00.000+10:00

Skate today on TA mall..he's doin' gud as a beginer since that was his 1st time for skating, hehehehe..as usual we took pics, while i was abt to took his pic, the x-gf called..uh, she's kind an irritating gurl..yeah i realize i don't have the right to feel that way since am still NO ONE for him..but please, should u called him on n on everytime we'r together..? Uuh..
Well still nothing to be highlighted today, n he'll back there tomorrow..after this, if i still don't have any sureness, then we'll be juz a friend..

meet him

2009-04-11T03:33:00.002+10:00

Finally i met him today n spent the day together by watching Monsters vs Alien 3D, ate 'yaiks' noodle, ate crepes, buryam n Sour Sally which is da 1st time for him since he doesn't like yoghurt, but infact, he likes Sour Sally, hehhehe..
Well, nothing to be highlighted for today, juz doin' sth common, hehhee..
-wait for tom ^o^-

Pengen Liburaaaan >.<

2009-04-05T23:54:00.003+10:00

Too tired of work >.<

Huff, dah ga tau d rasany klo tiap pagi ke kantor, bawaanny dag dig dug sama kerjaan yg lagi gw tanganin..slaluuu aja ada perubahan, ntah itu emg dr sisi gw yg dudul ga teliti ato dr temen gw atopun dr pihak sie client..sempet kepikiran mu resign aja, ga kuat nahan beban batinny euy, berasa ky diteror sampe kebawa mimpi, huff..no one i can talk to..ujung"nya gw emg paling bs jujur sama Dee..mungkin coz dy yg paling ga tau kondisi kantor gw ky apa, jadiny gw berasa lepas bgt klo cerita ke dia..well she's the one who is rarely with me, but intens i think, she's come @ the rite time when i need someone to talk to..yeah, support each other, rite sista ^0^

My friends r abt to go to Belitung this weekend, ooh it will be fun..!! too bad i can't enjoy them, yeah coz of several reasons that no need to tell here, juz abt making me emotional, waakakaka..well, have a really fabulous trip guyz :(

He'll come on 10th..if he come..let c how my long weekend will be ended, will it be lots of fun or lots of crap (since if he's not coming then my weekend will be really sucks..)

I want to go to d beach, want to go to the mountain, want to try many things that never been tried before...really wanna have lots of fun...!!

@u, u'd better be come >.<

fesbuk teruus..

2009-04-05T16:14:00.000+10:00

Niatnya wiken ini mu ngelanjutin kerjaan, tp malah browsing sana sini sambil liatin fesbuk..gara" fesbuk juga jd ga mood..the more i look the pics, the more i can't compare myself to her..they look nice together i think..will i take a wrong way to accept him or should i take it..?
Huff..Blame Fesbuk for making me bad mood =.='

couple days

2009-04-05T14:33:00.000+10:00

5 more days to 10th..

plain

2009-03-30T02:11:00.000+11:00

Report for these 2 days..

Sabtu..
Pagi” gw ke tempat temenny Pau” tux ikutan acara Community service gt. Qta ke SLB di depok..kind a lesson for me saw them who has physically challenge live their life dmn rata” tiap ank min punya 4 jenis cacat n smuanya bed rest..langsung bersyukur udah di berikan apa yg gw punya sekarang..
Malem” gw ketemu sama tmn” SD gw, reuni kecil”an..seru..ketemu sie mantan..he's getting mature now, become a good photographer..ketemu dy jd inget dulu, hihihii..aga ngebikin gw sedikit blushing gw rasa :d hahahaa..aaah, i miss him now :D

Minggu..
Dee lg k jkt, truz dy mu main Para” dance, jd d qta cao k Karawaci..akhirny sampe sana main di Timezone abis itu ntn Confession of shopaholic (nice movie) truz lanjut Timezone lg, hueheuehe..kata dee gw berubah, jd aga tenang..am i..? maybe yes..mungkin coz gw emg lg bnyk pikiran juga x y, jd nya ga terlalu excited klo cerita sth..

Now..
Plain..sampe rumah ga ada orang coz bonyok lg pergi kondangan..home alone..truz sms dy..dy masih sama temenny..suddenly..plain..bad mood..huff..harusny dengan gw ngelewatin 2 hari ini gw seneng ato pumped up yah, tp ntah kenapa, tiba” plain..ntah knp..
Gw knp y...?
After an hour, he called me..plain..ga semangat gw jawabnya..lg” ntah knp..maybe bcoz of lack of communication..? busy..don't have time..hah cliche..do i really want to do this? Hhh..jd inget, td Dee juga nanya hal yg sama..i said yes..but tonite, suddenly i'm not sure that i want it..hhh..lg ga mu ngomong sebenerny..ym juga males..
Pengen sendiri..juz to calm my heart..

*no hurt feeling to u..juz..i need time to calm myself of whatever

enjoy my loneliness -bad mood-

2009-03-22T11:37:00.000+11:00

This is a bad week..bener" bikin gw ga mood sepanjang hari, smua berawal dari kerjaan..kerjaan yg hectic deadline sana sini, slalu ada update-an dr sisi client n adanya missunderstanding yg memperlambat pekerjaan semua orang, sampe akhirny hal itu bikin techlead gw kesel n aga negur gw (coz ini smua ngefek ke kerjaan dy juga)..huff..i feel so stupid..ga becus kerja..
Gw pengen cerita, pengen luapin smua kekesalan gw, but i don't know to whom i can talk to..i have friends, many friends, but in fact that i have nobody who can spend the time for me even for abt a half hour, cuma tux dengerin gw cerita, sukur" bs nenangin gw, heuheuehue..tp gw ngerti koq, ga cuma gw aja yg sibuk, pasti mrk juga pd sibuk..
Lonely..kynya ini emang satu"nya cara gw to calm myself, to think abt other things than that hectic probs..
Thx to Ulan & Puca yg secara ga sengaja ketemu di cetingan, @ least bs dengerin keluh kesah gw n bs tuker pikiran juga ^0^
Well, gw ga akan menjadi lembek atopun cengeng hanya karena hal ky gini, i know many peoples have bad experiences, even worst..mungkin ini salah satu sentilan dari Nya buat gw biar gw jd lebih teliti lagi dalam pekerjaan gw..

*To Ayu kecil, masalah gw ga ada apa"ny dibanding sama yg lo hadapi skrg..i wanna be like u, tough girl..

abt LDR & Kambing Jantan

2009-03-09T17:29:00.000+11:00

I've seen kambing Jantan the movie, so so aja (since i read the book & luv it badly), but quite nice, especially when u do the LDR thing. yeap, I was smile when I saw scene by scene..This movie kind an 'alert' to me to c the LDR as a choice to keep the relationship with ur hunz..many problems, one of the cliche thing is the distance..I juz smile, thinking that -maybe- I'll do it with someone, hihihii..

I am smiling now :) and write this blog while hearing the Adelaide Sky - Adhitia Sofyan

nb :
what is LDR..?
My version : Long Distance relationship
Kambing Jantan version : Long -Dick- Reduction =)) wkakkaak, dodol...

kerja menggila - intens

2009-03-04T13:39:00.000+11:00

Huaaa, semakin sering lembur nie gw, huhuhu..pengen nge-kos..cape bgt brkt subuh pulang tengah malem, huhuhuu...

-Irvanny resign, sedih, hix-

Hmm, dia jadi balik dr Spore bulan depan, hihii, can't wait ^0^

doubt

2009-02-21T22:04:00.000+11:00

What makes me doubted him..? I don’t know..i tried to find the answer in my head –my heart..?- but I never found it..Honestly, I like him, but do I really ‘like’ him..? I don’t know either..there’s something in my heart..Questioning.. Discrediting..Not trusting him..and I feel like I’m just an option for him..days he tried to convince me..days he tried to pleasant me..why..?

Many reasons came to be the answers to him for me..does my heart so cold to see it..? i think i'll give him a chance..it's not bcoz i'm a desperate-jomblo woman-or a girl-, hahaha sounds pathetic, but it's more like sth to lead me, to show me, to give me the answer abt my own feeling..

Well, we had discussed abt our relationship -without tellin' the 2nd character's name of course- many times..he asked me questions abt the possibilities of the next-relationship, how to manage an LDR, convinced me that i'm special, etc"..i don't know for sure...

What i know is, he'll be back in April to meet me..should i prepare sth for any possibilities..? hahaha, juz wait n c..

V-days - LDR..?

2009-02-15T16:05:00.000+11:00

What is so special from Valentine..? i don't think Valentine is 'a Must' in a relationship..not only relation with ur couple, but also to the others..well, i used to celebrate it since my friends always did it..but in the past years, i became really careless to the v-day..is it because i don't have a boyfriend to share it with..? wkakak, i don't know for sure..

Well anyway, i'm in Puncak, all Jombloners in the office -the closest one, of course- went to Puncak exactly @ v-days, hihihi..

Talking abt boyfriend..have u ever do the LDR..? well, i don't really know how it is goin' coz i never had experience with it..but will i..? i don't know either..i think when i do the LDR, i'll never feel like i have a boyfriend..yes we can talk on the phone, and of course we can keep our communication with all available devices..but the existence is also important, rite..? i'm afraid the feeling will be gone if we dont meet..ah i don't know, well i also don't do the LDR rite now, so i won't take it seriously until i really have it..

sensi

2009-01-28T21:41:00.000+11:00

Belakangan entah kenapa gw jadi sering sensi..klo ada yg berisik, gw jd langsung kesel..pas gw lagi butuh BA tux nanya kerjaan gw, smuanya pada ga bs, ato pergi..skalinya ada di kantor, fokusnya cuman sama project yg dia pegang, yg lain dicuekin..hayaaah...kerjaan gw juga deadline iniiii....!!!

Urgh kesel gw >.<

seneng - sebel

2009-01-27T22:28:00.001+11:00

3 hari kemaren sie Tiang liburan ke Ind..we spent time together in puncak, wkakaka..nekat..brkt jam stgh 4 sore, Cuma tux makan gurame, wkakkaka..kasian bet yah di Spore ga ada variasi makanan ky di Ind, hihihii..yah seneng lah dia ke sini, dah lama juga ga ktm ma dia :D
Barusan dapet kabar dari mayang klo ternyata dia ga jd cao ke Jogya, yippy..!! oyah, dia juga bilang klo sie ce sirik semakin menjadi”..hhh, cape yah, knp musti sirik gt sie..klo emang ga punya kemampuan y jgn ambil jalan negative gt dunk..*huh hah, jd ikutan emosi =.=’
Lagi aga aneh dengan keadaan gw dan sie Galak ituh..ada apa sie sebenernya..? dia bisa tiba” baik bgt ke gw, tp bs tiba” cuek mampus ky orang ga kenal..iiih, nyebelin bgt kan..!! klo kata temen gw sie dia itu egois coz qta harus ikutin mood dy..when he wants to have fun, then we should join him, but when he is busy, we shouldn’t bother him..uuurgh…dasar co egois..gw sampe dibikin bingung gini sama dia, ck ck ck…

empty

2009-01-23T22:18:00.000+11:00

Belakangan ini gw jadi rajin lembur, sampe rumah slalu diatas jam 10 malem, berangkat jam 6 pagi…begituuuu terus tiap hari..mungkin bonyok gw juga dah kasian ngeliat gw x yah, pas gw pulang jam 11 kemaren, nyokap gw komentar, “mama dah tidur, Nissa baru pulang..emang ga kepikiran tux kerja di tempat lain..?”…heuheuheue, kynya emang waktu gw buat keluarga dah bener” ga ada yah T_T
***
Well, belakangan gw jadi deket sama salah satu temen gw, ga tau knp, tiba” aja deket..tapi biasanya sie y, klo udah tiba” deket, pasti tiba” bs jadi jauh juga..huff..cape ky gini..baru” ini gw juga sadar..klo dia juga deket sama temen gw yg lain..well, intinya jgn terlalu berharap d, coz sapa tau dia emang baik ke smua orang, so I declare that there’s nothing special between us..
***
Mayang baru kasih tau gw klo dia mu cao ke Jogya.. T_T kenapa musti cao sieee…alasannya sie coz dia dah males sama salah satu temen kantor nya yg kynya sie sirik ma dia (Fb & all related internet items were cracked). Huhuhuuu, tapi kenapa musti caoo…hix hix..masa smua sobat gw pada di luar kota smua sie, huhuhuu…di jkt aja dah susah ketemu, apalagi klo di luar kotaaaa….!!!
***
I'm feelin' empty..
Too many words to say, sampe akhirnya ga bs diomongin disini, wkakakaka...

resolution..?

2009-01-04T22:45:00.000+11:00

Still have no resolution...

makanan kampuzz

2008-12-30T14:34:00.001+11:00

Malam ini entah kenapa pikiran gw melayang ke nasgor tek-tek yg ada di belakang Permata bank di Sudirman....

Anyway..gara" gw ngebayangin nasgor, gw jadi inget sama smua makanan yg menemani gw setiap hari slama gw ngekos di depan kampus gw. Yeap, gw akhirnya ngekos juga coz dah ga kuat sama kemacetan dan jarak rumah gw yg jauh itu... I used to go to Binus University from 2004-2008... awalnya gw ga mau nge-kos, tapi akhirnya gw nyerah juga & took a boarding hoz in front of my campus, Syahdan...I took Avalon Palma...quite nice...finger print, AC, Internet, TV Cable, bathroom inside the room, laundry, gym..nice, huh ^0^

Slama gw nge-kos, yg notabene hanya 2 bulan, gw menemukan surga makanan, wkakakka...lebay...y sebenernya sie ini gw nemu juga gara" bosen sama makanan yg itu" aja, sampe akhirnya nyobain hampir smua makanan yg ada di deket kampus gw itu...

Beberapa tempat yg sering gw datengin atopun gw minta tux delivery adalah :

1. Chiz n chiq --> Cheesy Chic / Curly Chicken

2. Jatim II --> Soto / Ayam goreng / Nasi Rames

3. Bakmi Bromo --> Mie Ayam bromo / Nasi Goreng Seafood

4. Bamboe --> Ayam Bakar dada / Paha

5. Bubur Ayam - Anggrek

6. Ayam Kremes – dapur 69

7. Burjo H. Senen --> Roti Panggang Coklat - Keju / Bubur Kacang Ijo campur Ketan Item

8. Soto Surabaya

9. Obonk

10. Soto Sandang

11. Alung --> Soto tangkar / Lele Goreng

12. Warteg

13. Padang - Syahdan

14. Malioboro

15. Soto Ibu – Anggrek

16. Sate Padang – Syahdan

17. Chiken roasten

18. Petojo

19. Bakmi Kaget

20. Chinese Food -> Gang Hj Senen

21. Golden Bowl

22. Dapur Mahasiswa

Well, itu adalah sebagian kecil makanan" yg sering gw order, hihihiii....jadi kangeeeeeennn...pengen makan itu smua lagiiii...hihihiiiii.....later ah, dateng k kampus lagi sama anak"....hayu" pada mampir k kampus gw, wkakakak ^0^

it is started

2008-12-11T12:28:00.000+11:00

Di postingan sebelumnya gw mengeluh tentang project gw yg entah akan di develop ato ga...sekarang ada kabar baru, yeap, the development is started..!! tapi ngeri juga euy..apakah yg gw kerjakan selama ini dah bener ato ga? masih kurang ato ga? make sense ato ga? hiiiy, ternyata ngeri yaaaaah...

Let see the progress...

Inspiring chat…

2008-12-02T16:09:00.000+11:00

Pagi ini tiba” Lusi (BA tux project gw), msg gw…nanya kabar, nanya project, nanya kerjaan…akhirnya gw curhat ttg keluh kesah gw tentang project ini. I feel that I’m stuck in my place while the others are walking,, even running leaving me behind…

Yeap, gw mulai ngerasa klo pekerjaan ini ga cocok baut gw…too many factors…salah satunya ya ini dia, kerjaan yg ga jelas akan didevelop ato ga…bukan berarti blagu coz ngerasa smua udah cukup tux memulai suatu development, tapi klo gini terus, gw ngerasa gw ga dapet ilmu apa”, gw ngerasa keberadaan gw disini jadi sia”…ato bs dibilang, gw ngerasa jadi orang yg ga berguna…bored…? Yes I’m bored…

Mungkin emang bener kata temen” gw dulu, klo gw ga cocok kerja di bidang IT, yah secara gw ituh Sanguin sangat, grasak grusuk sana sini, heboh dan rame, gw mungkin emang lebih cocok kerja dibidang creative ato marketing, entah apapun itu…jadi inget sama Mike Maramis, dia pernah bilang klo gw ga cocok kerja formalinformal ato yg haha hihi…hahaha…maybe yes I am, but I should do this bcoz at start, I really wanna know how to be a System Analyst… ky gini, gw lebih cocok yang

Back to the chat…. ngobrol sama Lusi mengingatkan gw akan cita” gw…cita”…? Mungkin lebih tepat disebut sebagai harapan, ataupun mimpi gw....i wanna have a gallery, wkakaka yes, a gallery…I really love Interior Design, really wanna work with sth related to it…and it makes me regret why I went to IT in collage,hey, it’s not late, rite…I still can go for it !! wkakkaa….

It is inspiring me to reach what I want…having a gallery for Interior Design, heuheueue ^0^

Wish me luck !!

soulmate...?

2008-12-01T21:28:00.001+11:00

Hahaha, I read my bestfriends’ blogs…I read it…suddenly I realize that we actually feel the same…feel that things are getting weird between us, feel bored bcoz of things that we wished for never come, feel geje for ourselves condition…funny, huh…It’s juz like a novel, or maybe a movie I think…

Lay down to ourselves, questioning everything that happen to us…upset, support or even mad…but can never let go each other…can I call it, ‘soulmate’…?

geje sangat....

2008-12-01T21:04:00.000+11:00

Beberapa minggu ini banyak kejadian..lagi geje nie, hueheuehuee…

Sie lalat ijo cari masalah sama gw..!! setelah dia ngadu ke sie tiang listrik, besokannya gw ketemu di salah satu halte yang cukup ramai disinggahi orang”…akhirnya gw 1 bus sama dia…ck ck ck…
Sekarang gw & tee sedang dalam kondisi terbalik..hanya gw, Tee & Mayang yang tau, wakakka (*tux Ulan, update-an nanti aja yah gw ringkes ^0^).
Sedang merasa sangat tidak betah dengan keadaan kantor…
Sedang merasa sangat tidak PD dan selalu bertanya-tanya apakah sebenarnya gw memiliki kemampuan menjadi seorang System Analyst. Kembali ke pertanyaan awal, “apakah gw memang harus bekerja disini…?” Atau mungkin pertanyaannya sedikit diubah, “apakah gw pantas disini…?”.
Sedang memiliki target untuk menyelesaikan pekerjaan yg sebenarnya entah bs diselesaikan atau tidak, secara banyak pihak yang tidak dapat diajak bekerja sama demi kelancaran project ini, termasuk sie Client itu sendiri…
Sedang pusing dengan perntanyaan orang” yang membuat gw bt, “kapan married…?”.
Sempat berfikir bahwa gw sedang dekat dengan sie tiang...dia sempet buat janji bodoh ke gw, “klo sampe target umur lo tux married ternyata lo masih jomblo, married sama gw yah ^0^…”, what the… *sounds so pathetic, huh…juz like a fairytale, wkakaka…
Beberapa hari yg lalu sempat merasa dikecewakan oleh orang terdekat…sempat merasa sendiri..tapi Cuma perasaan sesaat aja sie, huehuehe…
Merasa mendapat pelajaran yang cukup berharga, bahwa jangan terlalu berharap pada sesuatu yang belum pasti, coz when u can’t get what u extremely want, u’ll be disappointed badly… cliché, but it’s true…
Pengen ngelanjutin hobi gambar & design gw, tapi stuck coz ga ada referensi yg cukup membuat gw bersemangat to do that..
Kabar Nobi…? Kelaut ajah…!! Kabar Suneo..? still intens, heuehue…
Ga sabar until next year, Ulan’s marriage..!!! gw & anak” dah ngerencanain mu dateng ke Jember, whether by plane or by train…Yippy…!!!
Lagi suka banget sama ‘Wonderwall’nya Oasis…
Sedang merasa bosan dengan kegiatan kantor yang itu” aja…huhuhuu…

Yeaph, segini dulu deh update-an dari gw yg sepertinya cukup membosankan tux dibaca, wakkakka, jadi mabh” yah buat yg udah baca tulisan yg ga penting ini, hueheuheue ^0^

Conv - orang aneh

2008-11-27T17:03:00.000+11:00

Update terbaru setelah jari” ini jarang membuka blog, huheuehuee…

Td malem gw myg sama ulan converence, qta update kabar masing”, skalian ngomongin soal rencana” klo qta ketemu, heuheuheue…di tengah ajang ngerumpi yg seru, tiba” ulan cerita klo ternyata…orang” kantornya ga ada yg tau klo dia mu merit. Mereka malah nyangka klo sie ulan itu mau S2, wkakakka…alesannya ya gara” ada mbak” aneh yg suka ngiri sama orang lain & slalu ngomonging orang di depan orangnya sendiri…!!

Berikut resensinya :

chic_aqua: kmrn gw bengong di pantry waktu si mba a cerita habis ribut sama si mba b di telpon
mayang_niy: Gmn kl tau lo mau kwn lbh cpt dr mrk..
chic_aqua: masa ributnya parah
mayang_niy: Wkwkwk
chic_aqua: "anakku ganteng, ga kaya anakmu jelek"
chic_aqua: "anakku susunya mahal, kl pake susu murahan kaya anakmu, dia bisa mencret"
chic_aqua: hadooohh, pusing gw
mayang_niy: Buset
mayang_niy: Paraaah..
mayang_niy: Astagaaa.. Gila..
chic_aqua: sampe ke suami2
mayang_niy: Parah.. Speechless..
chic_aqua: client gw kan ada yg mukanya sangat bapak2, ud tua, pendek sekali, hitam kucel ya..
mayang_niy: Wkwk
mayang_niy: Lalu..
chic_aqua: trus moso mba a bilang, "anakmu ga mungkin ganteng, lha wong suamimu aja persis pak hasan"
chic_aqua: oia, bapak td namanya pak hasan
chic_aqua: ckck
chic_aqua: gw stress dengerin doang
mayang_niy: Ya ampun..
mayang_niy: Buseeet.. Kok bs y..
chic_aqua: misalnya gw ngatain anak lo gitu kan geblek ya may
chic_aqua: hahahaha.. ga mutu deh
mayang_niy: Iya lah.. Ga knal gw ma lo..
mayang_niy: Wkwkwkwk..
chic_aqua: :))
chic_aqua: misal : ya ampun may, anak lo nakal bener si, emaknya belanja mulu ga pernah ngurus anaknya makanya gada yg ngajarin
mayang_niy: Ica apalagi.. Lo gtuin bs nyewa snipper..
chic_aqua: gitu
mayang_niy: Wkwkwkwk
chic_aqua: hihihi.. parah kan
mayang_niy: Wkwkwkwk..
chic_aqua: iya, kl ica bisa manggil preman bukit tinggi dia
mayang_niy: Itu mah dewi bgt.. Kl ngmg nyablak..
mayang_niy: Wkwkwkwk..
chic_aqua: hihihi
mayang_niy: =))

Hahahaha, asli parah yah…di jaman modern gini masih ada loh orang” yg bs bersikap tidak modern…buat apa sie ngiri” gt…? Klo emang orang yg diomongin punya salah sie yah wajar yah klo dicela” gt, tapi lah ini…kebanyakan orang” yg innocent juga digituin sama mereka, ck ck ck…gw mah klo jadi ulan dah rsign x tuh yah, wakakakakaa =)) lingkungannya ga bener bangeeet….hihihihii….

Well, conv tadi malam akhirnya ditutup olah mayang yg dah ga kuat nahan kantuk…sama sie, gw juga ngantuk, heuheuehe…dan td malem itu salah satu conv yang paling dodol, lucu dan juga paling seru…wkakakaa….

lagi" itu, uuurgh...

2008-11-07T21:07:00.000+11:00

I'm sick...

Bukannya muak, tapi gw beneran sakit nie, heuheue...dah 3 hari istiharat dirumah....

Anyway, sore ini gw bantuin nyokap bikin ager" and udang goreng sambel...pas lagi ngaduk" kuali yg isinya sie udang ituh, nyokap gw lagi" ngebahas soal pacar....haduuuw maaaaam, sapa sie yg ga pengen punya pacar...? tanpa disuruh juga aq udah nyari koq, huh...

Gerah gw ditanyain soal pacar mulu....emang dikira gw mau jomblo mulu apah...!!!

-emosi jomblo-

Anyhow, gw abis order gila"an di kutukutubuku, huehuehue...ga tanggung', gw pesen 5 novel sekaligus... my orders are :
1. Metropop: Four Seasons In Belgium
2. Marriagable: Gue Mau Nikah Asal...
3. J.P.V.F.K. (Jakarta - Paris via French Kiss)
4. Bookends
5. Love for Show

Hmm, pesenan yg cukup banyak...well, those r all kind of metropop novel. Don't know why, walo gw tau ceritanya pasti soal hal" yg berbau metropolitan, gw seneng aja ngikutin alur cerita yg ada di dalamnya....

Sebenernya sie gw jadi mulai suka novel ya kurang lebih 1 th ini, dan smuanya gara" ulan, hahahhaa...lagi" Ulan...bikin blog juga gara" dia nie, huehuhueee...

Jadi inget, one of my friend in facebook rekomen gw buku"nya Fradhyt Fahrenheit yang judulnya "Beauty For Sale" & "Beauty For Killing"...katanya dia sie bagus banget...tapi ntah kenapa koq gw blom tertarik yah baca bukunya itu...terlalu metro lebay gimanaaaa gt...maybe i'm gonna change my perception after reading it, but later aja yah, huehuehueee....

Dah ah, mu ma'em sambil lanjutin baca "Being twenty Something Is Hard !" dulu...cao...

4 sekawan

2008-11-03T21:29:00.000+11:00

Hihihihiii, barusan gw baca blognya mayang yg ini, lucu deh, hihihiii...ternyata temen pertama gw di kampus ya mereka itu...Mayang, Dhani, Dc...Berlanjut dengan Tara dan Iman, lalu datang Amer, Halim dan Balgies...ada juga duo centil Dyna & Oppie, diikuti dengan sekumpulan pria" aneh Remal, David & wahyu, berlanjut dengan Tiwi, Lytha & Tiara...

Hmm, bisa dibilang itu juga salah satu bentuk urutan gw deket sama mereka, hihihiii....

Banyaaak banget cerita waktu di PCM, masalah" yang sebenernya klo diinget" lagi, serasa ky sedang memerankan sebuah sinetron di tv (yah secara sinetron" Ind isinya gitu" doank), serasa ky anak SMU...maklumlah, masih awal" kuliah, kebawa badungnya masa" SMU, heheuehue....

Hihihi, yang ini suka sama yang itu, yang itu suka sama yang di sana, wkakaka...lucu...saat" gw pernah suka sama orang...maybe love..? hihihihiii....lucunyaaa....

Mayang nie....bikin gw keinget" mulu, hihihihiii....dan hari ini gw harusnya lunch bareng sama dia, but reschedulled coz today is raining all day long, huhuhuuu...kangen...

Apa kabar temankuw smuaaaa....? IMU guyz...

masih disimpan..!!

2008-10-28T18:05:00.000+11:00

Hari ini gw lunch sama Nobi.. yah deket seperti biasa. Obrolan qta ga jauh” dari masalah perekonomian Indonesia yg semakin mendekati krismon (OMG, jangan lagi dunk…). Pulang dari sana gw minta temenin tux beli cemilan, coklat tentunya..gw beli Beng-Beng 3 buah, buat sie Bulet sama Nobi. Pas gw kasih k Nobi, dia nolak…truz dia bilang klo Beng-Beng yang dulu pernah gw kasih masih dia simpen…

WHAT….?! Masih dia simpen…? It was like…4 month ago I gave him a Beng-Beng when I was about to went home..and it is still on his desk…!! OMG…pantesan gw suka heran…dibawah monitor dia ada Beng-Beng yang masih utuh & slalu ada disana…gw sempet kepikiran sie klo itu Beng-Beng yang dari gw, tapi gw ga yakin…dan hari ini, kebenaran itu telah terungkap, wkakakakaa….

I still cannot imagine, 4 month…katanya sie dia ga suka coklat…lah klo emang ga suka coklat, knp ga di kasih orang lain aja…? Dari pada mubazir khan…ck ck ck…buuuuut, gw seneng sie apa yg gw kasih k dia ga di kasih lagi k orang lain, huehuehueee ^0^

emang musti sabar ngadepinnya...

2008-10-25T22:51:00.000+11:00

Gw speachless...

Kynya emang musti sabar sama temen gw yg satu ini..slalu memberikan kejutan" yg tak diharapkan, hahahahaa...sesuai pohon kepribadianny dia...ky td, gw ngajakin dia ntn, eh ternyata dia malah set-up acara ngajak ntn temen yg lain...jd y mending gw mundurlah, huheuheee, cape klo diikutin...padahal tadinya gw ngajakin pergi coz qta udah lama ga ketemuan & cerita"...tapi y sudahlah...

Anyway, belakangan ini makin banyak undangan pernikahan yg dateng k gw...waah, repot nyiapin gaun tiap mu dateng k resepsinya, tapi seru sie...pernikahan slalu indah tux dinikmati, heuheuehue...ky last weekend, gw k nikahan temen kantor gw, Lenny... nikahnya in international way, seruu...ada acara lempar bunga segala, heuehuehe...besok juga ada nikahan temen kantor gw (*lagi), namanya Erin...akan jadi seperti apa acaranya? ditunggu besok yah reportnya ^0^

Pacar, pacar....dimana dirimu...? apa gw ke tempatnya Myg aja yah, biar ada bule nyantol satu buat gw, wkakakkkaaa....(*sounds desperado coz don't have an escort to go to the marriage, wkakakakaa....)

Huff...mana nie sie Ratu OL, Mayang mana dirimuuuwh...? beda sekarang yg dah sibuk sama kantor barunya, wkakkaakaa...ngebalep gw may pulang malemnya...? wkakakakaa...(*peace yoo..)

Hoya, udah lama juga gw ga ketemu sama 'Power Rangers' gw, yg terdiri dari 6 orang jenius yang memiliki kehidupan sangat berwarna bagi gw, my crime partners, wkakakakaa....Dee, Deena, Manyun, Fanie & H-O, serta ga ketinggalan gw duoonk, hueheuehuee....Dee sedang pusing dengan skripsinya, Deena sedang seru"nya lanjutin S1 & part time job nya di Arum jeram (*lupa namanya), Manyun semakin giat bekerja, H-O kynya makin menggila di Semarang dengan mengungkapkan fakta" yang sangat hebat bagi gw (salute to u, dear), sedangkan Fanie, kabar terakhir dari dia sie gw bakal jadi tante, hohohooo....she is pregnant...!! senangnyaaa..congrats to Fanie & Billy ^0^

Last, sebelum menyudahi post kali ini, gw mau bersyukur dulu...2 hari yg lalu hal yg tdk disangka" terjadi, heuehuehuee...gw ga bs cerita disini. Intinya gw cuma bs bilang 'Alhamdulillah' ^0^

which sport...?

2008-10-23T01:36:00.000+11:00

'itu' lagi

2008-10-20T16:34:00.000+11:00

Hari ini gw ga masuk kantor coz sakit...sakitnya sie std, migren & mual"...malahan pagi ini gw sampe ue ue (hihihiii, berasa ky morning sickness yah...*upzz-ga deeeeng ^0^). Gw memutuskan tux absent kerja hari ini & periksa k dokter. Yaaah, mu gmn lagi..klo dah sakit kepala (bnr" sakit) gw ga bakal bs ngapa"in...apalagi klo sampe sinus gw kambuh, beeeuh rasanyaaa...tidur aja salaaah....

Akhirnya kira" jam stgh 11, gw pergi k dokter sama nyokap...di perjalanan, qta ngebahas ttg lagu" jaman jeboot yang enah kenapa langsung nyasar ke jodoh"an...ck ck ck...lagi" gw di tanya "Nissa pacarnya siapa...? sekarang udah saatnya pikirin pacar loh...cari yg seiman bla bla bla....", uuuurgh....sapa sie yg ga mau punya pacar...? sapa sie yg mau jomblo...? gw juga emoh kaleee...!!!

Cape deeeh...ternyata tante" gw juga pada nanyain kabar gw & 'pacar gw'....haduw haduuuuw....huh hah huh hah....emang dikira gampang apa yah cari pacar...? ck ck ck...

Cari pacar tuh ibarat milih baju...ada baju yg cantiiiiik & muahaaal banget, but if it doesn't fit in me, mu diapain lagi...? masa mu dipaksain pake baju itu...? yg ada malah aneh rasanya, ga nyaman...bener ta....?

Hayaaah, masa sie gw dah memasuki Quarter life crisis...? jangan sampe atuuuuh....22 years old...still 'young' enuf khan tux menjadi seorang 'jomblo'...? ck ck ck....

mana co gw..?

2008-10-17T13:09:00.000+11:00

Td malem pas pulang, gw langsung online, heueheuhe secara gw dah lama ga ol (padahal Cuma absent 1 hari :D). Pas gw nyalain ym, mayang langsung nyapa gw. Kira” begini hasil cetingannya :

M: “Ichaaaaaa……kangeen :D”
N: “heuheueeee, yaaa emang sie, gw tau klo gw ngangenin banget, wkakkaka”
M: “duh, males d….wkakakaka”
N: “may, ketemuan yux, hari sabtu siang, coz sorenya gw mu k nikahan temen gw”
M: “nikahan sapa..? temen sma/kul/kantor ? kali aja gw tau (tau nama maksudnya, heuehue…)”
N: “temen kantor, namanya Lenny”
M: “hoooo, gw gat au :D”
M:” pergi sama sapa cha…?”
N: “paling gw ke kantor dulu sie, barengan sama anak” kantor aja…”
M: “ga ajak co ca…? heuehuee”
M: “ajak sapa kek, yg bs barengan b2 gituuuu ^_^”
N: “hauhauahuaa, sial…ga punya co gwww….!!!”

Huff, saat” seperti inilah seorang pacar dibutuhkan…heuehueee, ga Cuma buat dijadiin escort aja sie (kasian bener klo Cuma dijadiin pajangan pas dateng ke pesta doank..!!), tapi y juga buat orang yg bs berbagi apapun….a real man for a woman…

So, where is my man…?

muak...akhirnya....

2008-10-09T01:50:00.000+11:00

Too much to say...

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Akhirnya gw manulis lagi...bukan di blog, tapi di diary...yuph, saat gw ngerasa gw ga bs cerita ke orang lain (apalagi di blog), gw slalu beralih ke 'teman' yang selalu setia mendengarkan gw, siap sedia menjadi 'garbage collection' gw, dimana gw bisa mengungkapkan apa saja tanpa harus was" diketahui oleh orang lain. Well, as u know...ga aman cerita di blog, apalagi klo nyeritain ttg kekesalan thdp seseorang ato sth dimana gw ga bs state nama maupun tkp-nya...

Well, miz u my old friend ^0^